Hard to love (ChaeSoo Fanfiction)

Chapter 6 - A glass of wine

Jisoo POV

"Listen, Ji-Hyun, I'm really thankful that you offered me to let me sleep at your place, but I promise that it's not necessary." I tried to argue with my friend, but to no avail. I mean, it wasn't the first time I told her that there was no need for me to stay with her for the night, as I would be fine by myself. But Ji-Hyun was always very caring towards me, and I really appreciated that about her.

"Oh, I heard that." The older woman replied with a smile. "But I want you to stay with me. I just sleep better if I know that you are not alone, considering what happened today."

And I couldn't blame her for that. It was obvious to her that Chaeyoung's words had an impact on me. It didn't matter how good of an actress I was, Ji-Hyun knew very well how to read people, especially in my case. And maybe she knew me better then I did myself. That's why I went with her regardless, at the very least I would get to spend a relaxing evening with my best friend.

Once we entered Ji-Hyun's apartment, we took of our jackets and immediately went to the living room. I've been here more than enough times to find the way blindfolded. Without having to look where I was going, I landed on my favourite spot on her spacious couch, letting out a sigh of relief on impact. "What a day this was..."

My eyes wandered around the living room. Nothing much has changed since my last visit, Ji-Hyun was very picky with how she decorated her apartment. Although it didn't appear like it on first sight, considering the rather random combination of old and new things. But Ji-Hyun understood how to combine her love for old furniture and vintage decoration with the need for the luxury of the most recent technological devices like no other. The old record player next to her giant television was the perfect illustration of what I was taking about.

"Stay like that, I know what you need." My friend announced and it didn't took her long to return with two wine glasses and a bottle of my favourite red wine. She was not lying.

"You're the best, Ji-Hyun." I smiled at my friend as she sat down next to me and filled our glasses up.

"I know. Just make sure to remember it." She grinned at me before we both took the first sip of wine, and just like that I felt my body relax.

"This was exactly what I needed." I sighed in relief and put down my glass before I leaned back into the couch cushions. Ji-Hyun laid down next to me on her side, supporting her weight with her elbow and leaning her head onto her hand. She smiled at me as her eyes wandered up and down. For a couple of moments, we just lied in this comfortable silence, before she eventually was the one to speak up again.

"So, wanna talk about it?" Her soft voice echoed through the silence of the room, the only other noise was the soft ticking of the old grandfather clock in the background.

"Talk about what?" I tried to play dumb, but Ji-Hyun wasn't the type of person to fall for that. She didn't even have to say anything, she just looked at me with that knowing smile of hers and I knew I had to spill it. "Okay, fine." I eventually gave in and turned my head to stare up at the ceiling.

"I.. I may have been a bit overdramatic with the whole "I was just able to move on" thing. But it is fair to say that it took me a long time to recover from the breakup, even though I am the one who ended things."

"But you had a perfectly good reason to do so." The brunette intervened and took another sip from her wine class, but never took her eyes off of me for just one second.

A hurtful smile crept onto my lips. "I told myself the same thing, day by day. But that didn't ease the pain in my heart one bit. After what she did to me, I knew I couldn't maintain this relationship. After she broke my trust in the worst way possible... But feelings don't disappear over night, especially when you know each other for as long as we did. It took me years and various attempts to get to a point where I wouldn't start crying randomly, whenever a song came up we both used to enjoy together or... a movie we watched or anything like that. Eventually, I was able to leave the past behind, because I thought that she did so too. Prior to Jennie's event, we haven't exchanged words in years." I was about to take another sip from my wine glass, before I realised that it was already empty. But of course, Ji-Hyun was already there to help me out.

"My apologies, how could I leave your glass sitting empty?" She jokingly said as she refilled both of our glasses.