Hard to love (ChaeSoo Fanfiction)

Chapter 21 - Lifesaver Jisoo

Jisoo POV

God, what was I thinking back then? "So technically, you are still single.", what has gotten into me? Did the breakup with Ji-Hyun threw me off of my tracks so hard that I'm flirting with anyone now? Even if they are in a relationship or.. whatever it was what Chaeyoung and this girl had? But that couldn't be, I was doing fine. I said it to Chaeyoung myself, Ji-Hyun turned out to be such a bitch, why would I grief over her loss? Well, at least that's what I told myself, and Chaeyoung as well. But now that I was all alone in my house, on the very same couch Ji-Hyun and I cuddled not long ago... this feeling of loneliness wouldn't go away. Every time I thought I arrived at home, it turned out to be a failure and no matter what decision I make, it seems to be the wrong one. I was convinced that Ji-Hyun would be the person to fill the hole in my heart that Chaeyoung left. But I should've known better, a square doesn't fit in a round hole and in the same way there is only one person that could replace Chaeyoung and that was...

"Chaeyoung..."

Of course, nobody would respond. It was just me and my furniture. Nobody to talk to, nobody to lean onto. Chaeyoung was gone, having dinner with J. Shit, who did this girl think she was? Did she really thought of herself to be that special that she could play games with Chaeyoung? She didn't even want to give her a name, although they are seeing each other for several weeks now and yet she has the audacity to claim Chaeyoung for herself. And why? Because I pushed Chaeyoung away. Not only once, but over and over again. Every time Chaeyoung tried to make up with me, I allowed Ji-Hyun to interfere until I eventually shut out my dear friend completely. How foolish of me. I've known Chaeyoung for ages, I should've known, or at least sensed, that her efforts were genuine. If there was one thing everyone did know about Park Chaeyoung, it was that she was the most kindhearted, friendly, gentle soul to ever walk the earth. And because of one mistake, all my trust was shattered and I saw her with whole different eyes. But the second Chaeyoung was literally kneeling in front of me, begging me to forgive her and give her a second chance, shouldn't I have realized that she was truly sorry and that her cheating wasn't a malicious act, but simply a mistake, originating from insecurity and flawed communication? Maybe. But again, I was hurt and as a result, didn't act rationally but based off of my emotions. Something, Ji-Hyun understood how to abuse like nobody else. After all, I've known this woman for quite some time as well, and never did I suspect her to be anything like the bitch she turned out to be. Well, it didn't matter now. Chaeyoung was determined to engage in this relationship, she was done with me.

Or maybe not?

At this point, I was pretty sure that Chaeyoung was still in love with me. However, since she was getting closer with J as well, she probably kept it to herself to not hurt the other girl. And if that was actually the truth, I had a little over a week to get it out of Chaeyoung. What would happen afterwards? I had no idea, but I felt like if I would just sit still and watch on as Chaeyoung dates this girl, I would make the biggest mistake of my life so far.

"Shit... What am I supposed to do now?" I hated to take it that far, but I didn't see any other way. Grabbing my phone, I started a group call with Jennie and Lisa. Lisa was the first to join and shortly after, Jennie followed as well.

"Jisoooo! Look who rose from the dead." Lisa cheered into the microphone, making both me and Jennie burst out into laughter. Just then I remembered that I still had some explaining to do towards the youngest member of our group.

"Okay Lisa, calm down. Jisoo, how are you feeling?" Jennie now intervened, the sound of an engine running in the background. She was probably on a little sightseeing trip in her Porsche, something she always liked to do when she visited Europe.

"I'm doing fine, thank you Jen. And Lisa, I would like to start of by apologizing for ghosting you these past couple of days. A lot of stuff happened."

"Oh yeah, you can say that." Jennie said with a chuckle, which confused me.

"What do you mean, Jennie? What do you know?"

"Oh, I know a lot. Chaeyoung told me what happened, since you didn't call me back after you worried me so much."

"Wait wait wait wait WAIT! Jennie, what did Jisoo tell you, and what did Chaeyoung tell you? Are our two love birds talking to each other again?"

"Jennie, if you don't mind, I would like to tell the story." I interrupted Jennie before she could even start her sentence. "Yes, Chaeyoung and I are talking to each other again. Two days ago... I caught Ji-Hyun cheating with another girl." Afterwards, I paused for a moment because I knew that a storm was about to follow.