atsushi angst oneshots

Forever reaping

TW: SELF HARM, GORE, BLOOD, CANABALISM, VIOLENCE AND OTHER POSSIBLE TRIGGERING THINGS

empty. the gaping void. that's what it feels like. being in the gaping void. I remember it so clearly. the feeling of my bones being ripped as they pulled my organs from my body. the bars of the cage. the winter air. outside. the trees. I can see the trees.

it's raining. I don't like the rain. it's soaks me. I'm bare. there's nothing. the blue light. my arms back. so is my kidney, I think. the bloods still there. they'll be back, don't get excited.

they'll be back.

they'll be back.

they'll be back.

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four hours. I can hear the scraping of the knife. knife on the concrete. my ears are ringing. I haven't moved. the trees. the trees aren't always this peaceful, were they? he's here. the cage opens. she's here.

the knife presses against my leg. she's holding me as he cuts. the blade gets deeper into my skin. there's blood everywhere.

*SNAP*

my body snapped. I could feel it. i can see it. the chunks flying everywhere. I can't scream. I don't *want* to scream. I deserve this
don't I?

I deserve this.
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I can feel the bars leave me. the cracking and ache of my bones as they contort and stretch. the way my skin peels itself to grow and fit its new shape and form. why am I the tiger? what happened to the cage? who is sh-!?

*oh-*

this is a dream.

this is a dream, but these aren't fiction. this is my reality. this happend. this is my fault. I did this. she's screaming and it's my fault.
May jaw fits around her head as it crunches down on her. the blood filing my mouth. that familiar, comforting but disgusting taste.

my claws shredding her skin, it crawling away from her bones. I swallowed her head whole. her neck bone is showing. there's a siren. there's screaming. there's someone else here.

he's on the ground. his chest is ripped open down to his pelvis. his intestines exploded out of his body, flying across the room. his blood drenched organs slipping and sliding across the floor.

the cops are here? why are they here?

oh.

*CRUNCH*

I'm breaking his arm.

it snapped off his body. he's dying from blood loss.

why didn't they call animal control? I'm a rabid beast. I'm not human. I don't deserve the police.

they're all dead now. I'm alone. there's nothing but my thoughts. my body's shifting back. the bones cracking and scrapping. the aching and screeching. the pain and torment.

the world's fading. why is the world fading?
why is this happening?

my ceiling. is this reality? is this real? I'm I okay? my fault. my fault.

I'm in the bathroom.

the razors in my hand.

my fault.