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⟨ 十三 ⟩

CHAPTER 13

❝ QUIET WHEN I'M COMING HOME ❞

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FOR A CREATURE that can never feel exhaustion, I feel so tired as I watch my girls hang up the laundry outside. They were older now, they could take care of themselves but still relied on me when it comes to heavier tasks. I've taught them all I know about daily chores, how to fix things, and how to craft.

My girls were no longer girls, they were young ladies that were slowly budding into young women. The day they become independent, that is when I truly become alone.

Akaza visits more often, and we do nothing but spend our time together, as if we wouldn't be able to do that even after everything around us wilts and shrivels. At night, when he's done feeding, he'd lay in bed with me before I pretend to sleep. He'd hold me close to his chest and we'd whisper to each other about all the things we wanted to talk about that we couldn't in the morning.

Sometimes he makes me feel loved, and sometimes he makes love to me. It felt relieving to know that with his touches did not came with harmful intentions, but he loved me in ways that I felt good. He'd kiss my lips, my cheeks, my forehead, my hair, my jaw, my neck, my shoulders, my everything. And I'd love each and every single one of his kisses.

I am now twenty-nine years old. I grow older each day yet my skin does not age. What I looked like five years ago is still what I look like now. I don't know whether to think of my everlasting look as a curse or as a blessing, but if my girls and Akaza think that it is worth admiring then I'd continue to think of it as a gift from God.

Today was both of my girls' birthday. They, too, grow older each day, and I'm so happy to witness them age. I feel like a proud mother whenever I look at them. From young little girls that used to look up at me with admiration and curiosity, doing errands and running through the streets to serve the house, to teenagers that were gradually learning how to manouver around the world by themselves.

Perhaps in half a decade or so, my girls would soon become brides or become independent women. Suitors would come, as well as opportunities that could give them a better life. They'd find jobs that they like and they'd leave my nest, already knowing how to fly on their own.

Once they do leave me, which I hope wouldn't happen too soon, I'd miss them very much. It'll just be Akaza and I, but everynight I'd think of how they're doing, I'd worry if they're eating well or sleeping well or if they're wearing nice clothes and many many more.

I couldn't help but chuckle humourlessly. Hazuki and Hizuki were just sixteen and seventeen, still clinging onto me like how they did all these years, yet I'm already thinking of what their future would look like.

Is this how a mother feels? Is this how a parent feels? Is this how someone who has raised a child on their own feels?

If so, it is quite bittersweet.

My girls. My children. My Hazuki and Hizuki.

I watched the two of them bicker about something whilst still hanging up the laundry, hitting each other with sticks they found somewhere outside. I laughed at their silly antics, leaning against the windowsill but staying out of sun's reach.

Hizuki began to chase Hazuki with a bigger stick she found somewhere, laughing evilly while Hazuki screams for me. They were having fun, and I'm glad they are. My heart swelled in joy as I realized that those two got to experience the childhood I never did.

Though I felt envy, I remained happy. They deserve to play, to have fun, and to be free.

They deserve everything I never had, and that is genuine happiness, freedom, and the love of a family.

END OF CHAPTER

A/N : Just a short shitty chap for now and for the next chap, I guess. It's nearing its end haha.