What it's worth .

~ Unkown Anxiety ~

* Valentina Pov *

Mr.Crenshaw walks to the door & opens it. It's him. "Nice of you to join us Mr.Spencer." He walks in & I have to say, over the summer he's gotten way hotter then last year. Summer did good to him, I can tell you that. He dyed his hair dark brown & he dyed the tips of his bangs light brown. I think his lips got plumper too. God it just makes you want to bi-.. Am I really obsessing over him? I don't even know his first name & I'm obsessing over this guy as bad as the boys on tumblr.

Now THEY'RE something to obsess about.

I gawk at him while he's being introduced to the class. Even though he's not new ,besides who doesn't know him. He's pretty much known for being the schools heartthrob & recently even heartbreaker.

Mr.Crenshaw tells everyone his name. Declan Spencer. Just hearing his name makes me want to faint. But I need to keep it cool. Remember Valentina you promised to not get close to a guy this year. Last time I broke my promise & he ended up moving, sad thing is I think I was falling for him. But I never told him how I felt. I've always been the worst with telling people how I feel, especially when it comes down to guys.

So when Declan came walking to where I sat & smirked at me then sat in the seat in front of mine I was paying attention to Mr.Crenshaw's lesson. I didn't want him to catch me staring at him, then he'll think that i was easy. Which I'm the complete opposite of , it takes a lot for me to trust let alone have a relationship with someone I hardly even know. I've learned from my mistakes, & I'm not planning on to make the same mistakes I've made before. That's what we learn from in life anyways, right? Our mistakes, that's one of the points in life.

As I think about some of the points in life I'm out of nowhere interrupted by a "Ahem". I look around and nobody doesn't look like they were saying anything directly to me so I try to do my work.

"Ahem" I look up & again the same thing happens. I'm beginning to think I'm just paranoid or something so I keep on just doing some random doodles. Hey it's a unicorn! I mentally say. If I said that aloud people would probably think I'm even more weird then what they hear about me. But it's okay, I like being different. All of a sudden 'I'm Different' by 2chains play in my head. It describes me well so I just hum a little, smile & bob my head.

I guess I got the attention of others because when I looked up most of my classmates was staring at me, some were snickering, some were giving me a weird look, & some were even giving me a smile. But when I looked at Delia she was doing all three, I could tell she was holding in her loud laugh I love.

So like any desperate bestfriend I do my famous dogface & she laughs loudly non-stop, holding her stomach. & as soon as the attention came to me it went to her in a instant. But everyone stared at her, even the nerds in the class that was paying attention to Mr.Crenshaw in the front row.

Not that being a nerd is bad, their actually pretty interesting people when you get to know them. But anyways getting back to my point. Even Mr.Crenshaw was staring at her. But he didn't look mad, she was new so he cut her some slack. So he goes back to writing on the board. "Um, is your friend okay?"

He sounds like the same guy that was doing the "ahems" I heard not too long ago. So I lift my head up thinking I was still paranoid until my eyes laid upon the heartthrob himself Declan Spencer showing his known sexy smirk. That smirk of his just makes you want to melt, but I'm not falling for his good looks like most of the girls. I'm just going to treat him like any other guy.

"Yeah, she just cracked up like that because I made a face at her." I said unamused. He gave me a face. "Are you okay?" He asked curiously. Was it the way I said it? Maybe it was. "Yeah, I'm great! Thanks for asking." I said with my known smile. I was in the yearbook in eighth grade nominated for best smile & actually won. My mom has it in a frame & everything, she's so proud of it.

"Nice smile you got there." He said as he winked at me.

God help me. I look at the ceiling & think why me? People might think I'm dumb to think this but to me boys like him equals trouble. & I'm not looking for that this school year.

* thebell rings *

I grab my algebra book, & my notebook then put them into my satchel. I walk out with Delia & weirdly Declan is waiting outside & smiles at me when I come out. I give him a friendly smirk & go my way with my bestfriend. "What was that about?"

Delia says to me while I'm in my locker. "What was what about?" I ask. "Don't play dumb with me Val, that guy Declan smiled at you. Spill" she closes my locker when I'm done getting my things & I tell her what was on my mind. "Val, what if he wants to at least be friends! Give him that at least for Pete's sake!" "Del I said I didn't want to get mixed with guys this year."

Delia gets on her knees & acts like she's in a movie begging for her life, seeing her like this makes me wanna crack up because she's such a good actress "please Val! For me! Do it for me!" I look around embarrassed. & I give in "okay, I'll try to be friends with him okay, now please get up!" "If you insist." She says with a innocent smile. & as soon as she gets up everyone starts to clap. Someone even whistles, I'm starting to think she planned this. Then she takes a bow. "That's it" I grab her arm & she almost falls over but she doesn't & speed walks with me the same pace.

* Lunch Bell rings *

"Finally!" Delia & I yell at the same time. We both laugh. I love how we always have our twin moments. I've missed them. As we walk to lunch I hear the grumble in my belly & know I'm definitely ready for my belly to be filled with food, I'm a fattie I can't help it.

We get our lunch & we sit at our lunch table with some of the same people in our other classes so far. I look beyond the cafeteria & feel a set of eyes on me so I keep looking. Until I see him, just like I thought someone was staring at me. Good it means I wasn't being paranoid.

As he started at me from a distance he smiles at me & waves. I don't want to be rude so I wave back. While I'm looking at his table I notice Avery is sitting right next to him. Of course, like I didn't see that happening. He was still smiling at me when all of a sudden Avery gets his attention & turns his head towards him & brings his lips to hers. They pretty much suck each others face at the table & then she kisses his neck. I looked shocked, & I feel betrayed. When I shouldn't. I just talked to the guy today, but in a way he looks at me with a guilty expression.

I just lost my appetite so I get off from my lunch table, grab my satchel, & put it over my shoulder. I walk quickly out of the cafeteria with Delia yelling out my name. But I don't care. This can't be happening to me. Not today, not ever. It can't happen to me again, please not again. I don't deserve to feel more pain then what I already feel. I sit down in a corner & cry my eyes out. Why do I have to be this sensitive girl, why can't I be more stronger then this. I made myself a promise, & this time I'm going to stick to my promise. I can't let this happen to me again, just think about what happened last time Valentina, just think.

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