Love Me Again

24

JENNIE

When I arrived home, nothing changed as I walked in. I left it silent and I came back with the echoes of it. There was no wife lying on the sofa comfortably waiting for me. There was none cooked food at all on the dining. My sight lingered for a bit as if expecting a figure coming down the staircase, brushing the bangs that made a mess in her sleep.

I was alone.

I have everything one could wish, a fridge that is always filled, countless designer things, a vault of money that could last even after a lifetime.

The house is enormous, but it has nothing in it that creates an anticipation from someone to come back and live happy.

It was lunch but I still have no appetite. I grabbed from the restocked row of fresh milk and sat myself on the couch across the grand TV.

As I opened it flashed various channels that did not take my interest. So I skipped and skipped until I was stuck in the news. I saw her, I saw my wife I know she was it even I was only seeing her backside.

And true to it, the inside showbiz reporter began broadcasting.

"Allegedly, Ms. Lalisa Pranpriya Manoban of the reigning Manoban Corporation went earlier this morning with her lawyer to file a divorce in court against her wife, Ms. Jennie Kim of the Kim Medical Group. We can remember that five months ago a tragedy happened to their family, a plane crash incident took the life of their son. Could this be the reason why the couple finally decided to break their vows or is there a rumour of third party? This is showbiz insider—"

With rage flowing in my veins I grabbed the remote control and threw it straight on the monitor. A huge crack appeared on its surface and instantly it turned black.

Fucking no. This can't be true. Lisa wouldn't do that. I am the love of her life and she sworn to me the day we wed that she wouldn't love somebody else as long as we live except I.

Before I knew it, I was filled of various emotions that made it difficult to hold myself. The whole room turned upside down, the round table on the living room dropped with vases on its top broken. Even my phone beside was fragmented on the floor.

My hand was bleeding but my heart felt worse.

I was only able to solve one thing and now there is another nuclear I can't fathom. I know I deserve all this, more than this. If only I can turn back time I would have undone everything that I did.

I wouldn't hurt Lisa, I would choose to hurt together with her. Something I failed to see or something I ignored. We should have shared the agony, but I let her carry it alone.

I even gave her my fair share and she carried it well far too long when I fucked up with mine.

I was only taking her pieces while she freely let me. She never said anything, she have always understood.

Lisa did it all.

My phone rang flashing Jisoo's name. I desperately caught the call and cried to her.

"U-unnie, she's divorcing me! Lisa, s-she's my soulmate you know that. I can't possibly live without her unnie. Unnie what should I do? My wife doesn't want me anymore..."

"Jen, you hurt her. You deserve this. As much as I want to help it's up to both of you and fate. Do you think she will forgive you?"

I sobbed even louder when I thought about being forgiven. I've caused her so much pain, am I worthy of it?

"Unnie... I love her. I love Lisa. I want to fight for her. I can't let this marriage go to waste."

Jisoo hummed and softly agreed but then  she asked.