The Boy With The Blue Eyes [Louis Tomlinson Story AU]

Chapter 18

Louis' PoV

   I really had thought Alice was better. She was the same girl I had remembered from when we were thirteen! I swear she was, but either way, it may have been a bad idea for us to get 'together' while I knew something was up. But I couldn't help it, I needed her. But I didn't need her like this. I needed her back to normal, the girl I had grown up with.

      I know I loved her, but I acted out of desperation, not love. There was passion, yes, but I knew it was wrong even as I was doing it. It had become clear to me, that I was no longer able to just keep her off to the side, knowing she wouldn't leave me because of her feelings. I felt like a jerk now. All these years I had been concious of her, I'd never forgotten, but I never tried to do anything, I just assumed she'd always be mine.

       Sleeping with her was probably a terrible mistake that would bite me in the ass later on. And if that decision didn't kill me, I'm sure Maliya would.

     "You slept with her? Are you insane?!" I cringed as she half whispered, half yelled right into my face. Mi was pacing across the dining room floor, and I was sat at the island, my hands in my hair. I raised my head to look at her when I heard the pacing stop.

       She let out a frustrated noise and took a fistful of her hair, and groaned as she paced again.

      "Maliya stop. I know what I did was wrong, and I wish I hadn't done it. But I swear to you, she was normal! I wouldn't have done it if she was in her physco stage." She stormed over right in front of the island, slamming her palms on either side of my arms.

      "That 'physco phase' is her normal now Louis. I know we both really don't want to go to some proffesional, but we have to. I understand why you don't want to. Telling someone that our friend just randomly goes insane all the time, harming herself and her younger sisters, one of which doesn't even exsist, isn't my idea of a good time. But Louis listen to me, we can not let this go on. We just can't." She pushed off the counter, and went to the sink, splashing cold water on her face. 

        Alice hadn't woken up yet, and I knew she wouldn't for a while. She had fallen asleep that following night, and slept all through out the first half of today. It was monday now, and I had only made it through the first few hours of school, when I texted Mi and said I had to go back to the house. It didn't feel right being at school, telling everyone who said anything about it that I had no idea where Alice was. The worst was having to tell Niall, Zayn, Harry, Athena and the others that I hadn't heard from Allie, but I was sure she was fine.I knew she wasn't, and wouldn't be until we took her somewhere, but I sure as heck wasn't going to be the one to drive her to the mental doctor.

      "I just don't know what to do. I mean, seriously, her own mother doesn't know." I said. It was true, we weren't going to call up Ms. Jenkins and tell her Alice had gone crazy, seeing ghost little girls, cutting herself, scratching the girls, having sex with me even though she is mentally messed up, running out and laying in the snow screaming at nothing.  I wasn't planning on telling her either, but it had been decided that we must take her somewhere to get something done about this.

       "Look, right now, you need to clean yourself up. You haven't showered in like two days, and you've been wearing the same clothes for a while," She wrinkled her nose at me. I probably wasn't smelling too good. I stood, peeling off my shirt grabbing one from a bag I brought over, laying on the table behind me.

       "Holy mother of.." Maliya trailed off just as I remembered my extremely finger-marked back. I pulled on my shirt as fast as possible. "That must have been one hell of a night," she giggled.