The Sweetest Thing (gxg)

Part 22

No matter how hard I tried over the past three years, my mind always wandered back to Vivienne Walton.

I tried my damn hardest to not let it. But it always did.

When I hung out with any new friends at college. When I went on a date, or even just slept with someone. Even when I dated my ex-girlfriend, Marina, last year.

I thought that I was as over her as I could possibly get. Sure, I thought about her. But I told myself over and over again that I felt nothing toward her.

Yet seeing her in person proved me all wrong.

And now I want to find a way to see her again.

I hadn't seen her for the rest of the party. I was so tempted to go upstairs and knock on her bedroom door and talk to her.

But I didn't do that. Because I had no idea if she even wanted anything to do with me. She seemed pretty quick to walk away from me and go back up to her room.

Maybe she has a girlfriend.

Why does the thought of that almost make me nauseous?

The thought of her being with anyone over the past few years- romantically, sexually, or both- made me feel a profound sadness that not many things have made me feel.

But I had to push it to the back of my mind and move past it.

When I was at work that week, anytime I had a free moment in between patients, my mind drifted back to Vivienne.

So she's in law school. I guess her mother won and Vivienne is doing what she wants- instead of going into fashion.

I work at a local hospital as an ultrasound technician. I started off as a Nursing major in college- however after a year, I decided to change my major.

Vivienne helped me choose sonography.

Dammit, everything is leading back to her.

I was off work on Thursday, as I work three twelve hour shifts- Monday, Wednesday, and Friday- and I got a text from Olivia.

It's said: Brynne is having a girls night tomorrow, and she invited us. You in?

I wonder if Vivienne will be there?

I said back: I'm in.

The girls night was starting at 9, and I ended work at 7. So I had to change out of my scrubs, and decide what I was going to wear in an hour.

Olivia texted me: Dress casual. Brynne said so.

Dammit. That won't impress Vivienne.

As it was August, it was still quite warm out. I put on a pair of shorts, and a dark green pullover. I left my hair down, and wore natural makeup.

Olivia picked me up again, and we started making our way to Brynne's.

"I wonder if Vivienne will be at this girls night." I said.

"Do you want her to be? I know she's been on your mind all week."

I sighed, "Knowing I'll be in her house and I won't see her would make me more upset than if I do. So, yes. I think I'd like for her to be there."

When we got to the house, there were 10 girls there total. Brynne, Janessa, Chloe, Olivia, and me- plus five other girls that Janessa and Brynne were friends with.

Brynne had set up the living room like a spa. She had face masks, nail polishes, lotions, and lip masks- as well as bottles of wine.

I looked at everything for a moment- and couldn't help but to think of the time Vivienne had set up a spa night for us