❝𝐃𝐚𝐫𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠 ~ 𝐃𝐚𝐳𝐚𝐢 𝐱 𝐟𝐞𝐦 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫 𝐨𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐭𝐬❞

❝𝐂𝐚𝐧'𝐭 𝐥𝐞𝐭 𝐠𝐨❞

Warning: suicide attempt

Your ability "Water Princess" allows you to control water and it's every movement. However depending on how big the quantity you control, the bigger the toll it has on your body. For example causing a title wave would cause your body to faint and drain large amounts of your energy.

It was a normal day for you in the agency. Ranpo eating as many snacks as possible and pouting when they ran out, Kunikida typing away at his computer until Dazai did something that ticked him off, Tanazaki and his sister doing God only knows what, Yosano cleaning a scalpel, and Kenji and Atsushi working together on some new report. You on the other hand were standing infront of a window. You have gained a problem of daydreaming for long periods of time. You weren't sure why it was happening so much but you just felt so numb and drained. Everything feels like a waste of time, you tried so hard to be good at something but you were always not good enough. Your ability was the same way. No matter how much you trained it, there would be no difference when your powers were too great leading your body to suffer the consequences. It hurt and causes you to cry often. It didn't help that you felt so alone with no one to run to.

A hand placed itself on your shoulder causing you to break from your trance.

"Are you alright?... you've been standing there for quite some time..." A familiar voice said. It was Atsushi and when you turned around you could see everyone staring at you with worry. You immediately looked down and made your way to the bathroom.

"I'm fine..." is all you could say.

His pov

When Atsushi asked you that question he couldn't help but look at you. You looked paler than usual and your cheeks were also lightly tinted pink. He couldn't help but worry... In fact he cared for you more than he did for himself. As you said those two simple words his heart ached knowing that you weren't simply fine, but suffering from something that you kept hidden from everyone including him. He wished he could comfort you but he wasn't sure how...

Your pov

After some time Yosano decided to go check on you and after some persuasion successfully brought you out to everyone. Without any further conversations you quietly made your way to your desk and began to work. You could feel a pair of eyes on you, those eyes that you loved very much. It was Dazai's, his chocolate hues that made your heart melt when looking into them. They remind you of bittersweet coffee that perfectly reflected any light shining on his heavenly figure.

You decided to finish all of your work then to head home. It was getting late and the sun was beginning to set. Hues of pinks and oranges were painting the sky as you walked on the pier. You stared out to the sea as if it was a siren calling you towards it leading you to your doom. You walked closer eventually enough that you had to discard of your shoes and socks to wade into the rushing water. Waves overlapped your feet as you stared into the endless sea. A gentle breeze blew through your hair and kissed your skin causing a chill to go down your spine.

'What if I just go in a bit further...' you thought. You began to wade deeper into the darkening water. When deep enough, you laid back to float in the water and stare into the sky above you. Waves came and splashed over you flooding your lungs after each breath you took. Your vision and hearing began to fade but before it fully vanished you heard a faint cry of your name...

His pov

He couldn't stop thinking about how much you have changed over a short amount of time. Your bright personality was overcame by a sad and weakened appearance. After the incident today he decided to follow you home to make sure you were safe. When he caught up to you he saw your figure aimlessly walking deeper into the ocean's depths. He was confused at first seeing you carelessly do so while fully clothed, but that was until he saw the woman he loved the most lay limp in the water when realization finally hit him. He found himself jump the railing of the pier and sprint his way towards your body while calling your name. Of course you couldn't possibly hear him as your body succumbed to its surroundings. As he reached the shore he tossed aside his long coat and rid of his shoes before jumping in to the water to search for your body.

After successfully finding you and bringing you ashore he laid your body down and propped himself to hover above you. He always failed to show his true emotions but he found himself quietly crying as his tears were mixing with the salty water falling from his face. Your body still remained limp beneath his so CPR was the only possible thing he could do to revive your slowly dying body. Thoughts filled his head that made him more upset and confused. Why did he save you if he himself wanted death to find him along with another to accompany him in his final moments? He would have wanted to join you as the oceans grip took over his body sending him into the afterlife. But why? Why did he save you instead? His lips continuously latched themselves on yours to discard as much water from your lungs as much as he could.

"Please (y/n).... Please wake up... everyone cares about you.... I care about you I need you..." he says in between muffled cries as if you could hear him. After minutes of constant attempts to revive you from your state he felt as if he was getting no where and threw himself on top of you and buried his face in your chest wishing you would wake up. To his luck your eyes gently fluttered open to then choke on excess water that spilled from your lungs. Dazai heard this and quickly shot up to look into your (e/c) eyes. "D-Dazai..." you whisper.

You look up at him as he hovers over your limp body. Tears flowed from his eyes and onto your face.

"Why.... Why did you... save me?...." You struggled to say.  His heart began to race as you said those words. He delicately closed his eyes and did the best he could to muster a smile.

"I guess you could say I fell for you Bella Donna..." he says while bringing his hand up to caress your dampened cheek. He stared down at your bewildered expression. "But tell me please my love... how much have you been suffering that has caused your mind to think of such a thing as suicide?" He said with worry. He watched as you began to cry as well bringing your hands to cover your face in embarrassment.
"Life has been so unfair... I'm not good enough for anything. I feel as if my being is a waste of space and I always feel so alone. I- I just don't know how to explain it. My ability is tied to water. So every time I walk past the ocean I feel as if it is calling me to merge with it, I guess I was finally willing to let it take over me." You cry. As soon as the final words left your mouth you felt a pair of hands gently remove yours from your face to then feel a pair of lips latch on to yours once again. He was now laying on top of you but made sure he wasn't crushing your body as he did so. His lips moved in sync with yours, delicately sucking on your lips as if they were the sweetest dessert he's ever tasted. You two stayed in each other's embrace for quite some time as if one or the other would disappear at any given moment. "I love you so much angel."

"I love you too... so much more." You say with a smile.

Authors note: sorry...

Tuesday August 1, 2023