❝𝐃𝐚𝐫𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠 ~ 𝐃𝐚𝐳𝐚𝐢 𝐱 𝐟𝐞𝐦 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫 𝐨𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐭𝐬❞

❝𝐃𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐦𝐞?❞

You shuffled your feet slowly as you walked home. Your head never looked up at any stranger that said hi or accidentally bumped into you. You felt numb.... Everything felt futile. You were putting so much effort into everything your life, job, family, and your relationship with the one and only Dazai. However, you felt as if you were gaining nothing from any of it. The pain of feeling worthless and pointless lingered in your mind.

As you reached your apartment you unlocked the door and hoped he wasn't home. As you stepped in a simple 'welcome home' came from the kitchen but nothing more.

He didn't fail to notice your pain stricken face as he watched you walk away.

You walked to your shared bathroom and locked the door so you could be left alone. A nice shower sounded lovely so you took your time forgetting about the world and your problems.

Outside the bathroom your lover waited patiently thinking to himself what could have gone wrong or what caused your troubled mind.

After your much needed alone time to think and relax, you walked out to instantly be greeted by your boyfriend.

"What do you want Dazai..."

"What's wrong with you? Something's up?" He says while grabbing your chin with his fingers.

You don't even dare to look in his eyes for it'll threaten your hidden tears to reveal themselves. The pain of that one thought... the one thing that could tear you both apart. What if he doesn't? What if he actually does but doesn't know how to show it? What if he doesn't care to show it?

"(Y/n) you're breathing heavily what's wrong? Answer me... please." He says with concern.

"Dazai"

"Yes?..."

"Do you really love me?..."

His expression softens but with a hint of sadness appearing.

"Why do you doubt my love?" He says shakily.

"I love you are three simple words that mean nothing if you don't act upon it. I want more from you. I want to know that I am loved by you. I want to feel special, beautiful, and so much more but I'm sitting waiting for something that will never happen. So if you really love me prove it." At this point you are breaking down and shaking him by his collar. He stares in return with a shocked expression. As you fall to your knees his eyes fill with tears. He picks you back up and holds you tightly to him and repeatedly runs his fingers through your hair.

"Oh my (y/n) I love you so much.... I love you... I love you... I love you... please don't ever forget that. I'm so sorry that I made you feel as if you weren't important to me. Thank you for bringing it up so I could change. I never thought of how I have been treating you in such a way. I love you so much my darling angel. I don't deserve you at all but I will spend the rest of my life trying to. I promise I will be so much better for you."

"I'm sorry too Dazai..." you say while wiping his and your own tears away.

"What for?"

"I feel as if I haven't been very loving either." You say while cupping his cheek with your hand.

He leans into your touch and smiles.

"You're presence is all I could ever ask for... I don't care how much effort you put into me I just want you here with me." He says while planting a kiss on your lips.

"Well then I promise that I will put so much effort into us that you'll see just how much I love you~" you say before returning the kiss.

The kiss lasted for some time. Your hands caressing his face and neck and even playing with his chocolate strands. His hands firmly held you in place as you both stood there basking in each other's embrace. It was such a lovely moment. Your heart began to beat strongly for him again just like the moment you first fell in love. As he pulled away his eyes never left yours. You were both left in a trance eyeing each other. His forehead leaned against yours as he said those three simple words that meant the world to you.

"I love you (y/n) forever and always."

Authors note: SORRY YALL ITS BEEN FOREVER SCHOOL IS KICKING MY BUTT

Monday October 2, 2023