A Book Of My OC's

- Siblings -

Hello sorry I'm writing abt my OC's rn, I finish the book I'm currently working on soon!

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Roman's POV:

It's been about maybe two weeks since my sister Moon had gotten back from a psychiatric hospital. She's been angry every since she left up to the very moment she returned. She's been upset at almost everyone but me which I found it to be odd. She would yell at Mom and Dad and even our sisters.

Moon was never a fan of hospitals or taking medication, she hated it. Truth is Moon thinks she's cursed, like all the paranoia and anxiety is a curse that was put on her. She had been like that for such a long time and she'd also been in and out of hospitalization for years. Half of the time it was involuntary on her part and she'd cry on the way there, she'd apologize and try to negotiate with whoever took her.

I could never understand how she felt, I wish I could but it's not that easy. Moon was hard to understand, but that didn't stop me from caring for her. She was my sister and I love her as much as I love the rest of my family. Family meant a lot to me and it was obvious when people got to know me. Call me an overprotective brother and I'd call that true. I was overprotective of my family and mainly my sisters, I was youngest of 4 sisters.

My sisters were busy with a ton, but I never was. I could barely hold a job, but when Moon was in the hospital I would visit her anytime I could, only if she wanted me to. My sister Julie does concerts, my sister Bela was married, and my sister Adeline lived with us too, she's nice too. All of my sisters were nice girls and I couldn't ask for better, they were the best I could ever ask for.

"Roman?" My mother's voice drags me out of my thoughts. I've zoned out and I'm in front of the sink. It's empty as I remember I had just finished the dishes. I slowly look up at my mom, letting out an awkward laugh. "Must've zoned out, my apologies." I apologize and walk off to my room. My room is close to Moon's room and I could hear something coming from her room.

I let a shaky sigh escape my breath as I put my ear against the door. I hear shaky sobs come from her room. Soft and fast mumbling that I couldn't make out myself. I softened up and gently knock on the door.

"...Who is it?" She asks, her voice is strained and shaky.

"It's Roman, can I come in?" I say, she's quiet before she tells me to come in.

I open the door and sneak in, I almost slither in like a snake. I shut the door behind me and wandered to her bed where she's sitting. I sit beside her. Her body is shaking and the tears continue to run down on her pale cheeks.

"You wanna talk about it?" I ask softly, she nods slowly and she hugs me tightly. She hugs me like it's the last hug she'll give anyone.

She tries to speak, but it's a spluttered mess, she's hyperventilating and her grip on me gets even tighter.

"Hey it's okay. Try breathing with me, am I okay to hold your hand?" She nods and quickly grapples my hand and squeezes tightly on my hand. Her grip is tough and firm.

"...One..."

Her grip tightens, her body shakes as I breathe in and out with her.

"...Two..."

She breathes out, it's shaky and her tears run down her cheeks more, I can feel them on my shirt.

"...Three..."

It's like she melts into my arms, her shaking is only light right now.

"...Four..."

I notice her grip on me loosens, her hands are clammy but I pay no mind.

"...Five..."

Her breathing is at a normal rate, she lets go of me and looks at the ground.

"I'm sorry.." She says, I look at her, "You're alright, you did nothing wrong, are you okay?" I say. "I'm...mad but I'm also sad.." she said, her voice is quiet as always. "If you don't mind me asking, why?" I pull her into a side hug. "Siblings, they're so different now, I know everyone changes, but they're just...Roman they don't visit me when I'm gone at those stupid hospitals!" She looks at me, tears running down her cheeks.

"Bela is busy with her stupid husband, Julie has her dumb little concerts and Adeline just- We barely talk!" She exclaims, gripping on her cat plushie. "It's only you who visits! My parents don't visit! They're my fucking parents!"

I feel no words come to my mind, I'm angry but I don't want to start a fight, especially tonight.

"Moon..." She looks at me, "I know you've heard this, but it can be hard for them you know.." I sigh, "It's hard for me too! I've been in and out of hospitals that you guys send me to whenever I have one problem!" She says, she's right about that. "It's not that hard to cancel concerts or not hang out with your husband or see your sister! It's always excuses, they make excuses all the time! Why can't they stop sending me off to wards!" She yells, tears running down her angry face.

I take a deep breath.

"Moon, they don't want that phone call. They don't want to hear someone say that you did something to yourself, if you killed yourself they wouldn't forgive themselves." I say. She leans her head on my shoulder.

"Why can't things be like they were before?" She asked, I always asked myself that. It's something we all ask ourselves.

"I just want to go back when I was younger, when I took care of you when you were little, when I was happy and when I was so excited when I heard that I was going to be a big sister.." She sobs, I embrace her softly. "You wouldn't believe how happy I was before.." Moon says though it's muffled because of the embrace that I now pulled away from. "I took care of you so much, I would hold you in my arms when you were little, I would sing to you and poke your cheeks and we'd both giggle." She lets out a strained laugh. "I want to go back to when I wasn't always anxious and paranoid." She yawns, she rubs her eyes. "I'm so sleepy, sleep sounds good.." she chuckles.

I get up and look at her, "Before I go, I want you to know that I'm your number one fan, I'm rooting for you and I am so proud of you. You've been doing great and I'm proud of you." I tell her, she smiles at me, "You're the best, Roman.." She says before yawning again, "You're the best sister ever, you know?" I say, smiling lightly.

"Good night, Roman."

I smile and give her one more hug.

"Good night, Moon." I say before I left her room and shut the door.

I really couldn't ask for anything better, things are tough for her, but I was being honest when I said I was rooting for her and when I said that I was proud of her. She's come far, and it's a long and dangerous journey, but she's always known that I'll be there for her.

- Chapter End -