Today I was so happy to see Kior... she was coming back with baby Azure and I couldn't wait to see how she looks. I got my room Situated and build the crib on my own. It was black and green and a switchable button where it sways. I can't wait to meet you lil one. My whole pregnancy has been very incredible.. Found out I was pregnant in February but I need him out I'm tired. November hurry up. I got in bed and took a nap to pass time. Soon then I got woken up to Someone tapping my knee. It was Kior she was standing up holding baby Azure in her arms wrapped in a pink blanket with mini Mittens on. "Awwww she's so cute !! I said slowly getting up. "I know I literally cannot stop looking at her.. she looks like me doesn't she .. "yeah a lil.. "come to my room she said walking out. "How was the labor? "Girl it was brutal I cried my eyes and heart out .. the contractions ouuu I can't even explain that. But once its over you will feel so much better. She weighed a lil under 5 lbs .. which I expected because they thought she was finna be primi- she laid Azure in crib and she started to breast pump. "Girl .. I haven't had no sleep she eats like every 3 hours ... my boobs hurt and i just want a lil rest... my legs don't hurt it's just my back where they stuck the epidural at. "Dang girl I hope you get better. "I know girl but how did it go with your mom and Jodie?
"It went well he came and stuff and they told my moms that I will be getting a earlier sentence because of good behavior so that means we might be leaving at the same time. "Yess!! She said in a low cheer. "Was Darrien there at the birth? "Yes him and his mom my mother she in another state and stuff so I'm glad she will be moving out here that way I can move in with her by the time my sentence is up. Cause my grandpa he's foreclosing on his home.. "oh that's wild .. but I hope everything works out for the best I will leave you and azure to sleep now. "Okay girl .. she turned her dim light on and went to sleep. Every few hours I would hear azure cry and cry.. I know she's going through it ... I heard Miss Angela go in there every now and then offering support. Our cells opens at 6:30am so I decided to watch television. I grabbed my blanket and some apples and sat on the couch Next to Jaylyn who I didn't even know was there holding her sleeping son. She watching a marathon of rifle man. I'm not finna sit next to a scum bag. "Excuse me !! I said what's your problem with me it's too really in the morning to be tryna beef with me. "You stole Jodie from me ... that's what he was mines and mines alone now all of a sudden you ace with him now !! When I got locked up he was said he was gonna hold it down for me but he didn't he moved on to you so let's see if the cycle continues home girl... she walked away while her son was whining I sat there tryna contemplate but who was I kidding I moved on it's been months and I'm not finna stress or gout sad just cause she did. Thank goodness I'm getting out early cause I don't wanna deal with this. I'm 7 and half months pregnant only 2 months to go. I peeked around the corner to Kiors room. She was sleep with Azure laying right next to her. Shes literally leaving next month... She won't even get to see Karmello when he's born. I brushed the thought away and I went in my cell and I Roamed around I was literally bored and had nothing to do.. The letters that I wrote to my lil one is under my pillow. I had no paper... no books nothing. I truly felt alone. So I started to sing. I am not the only traveler, who has not repaid his debt I've been searching for a trail to follow again ... take me back to the night we met;
Stressing is something that I most def don't need right now. I forced my self to sleep.... God let me out of this prison.
Today was Offcially November 22nd and Miss Wang said that my baby is due any day now. I was scared I never given birth before.. I was fat swollen and hungry he eats so much it's ridiculous. I can tell he was gonna be a big baby. Jodie was checking in from time to time and I told him and my mother to be ready for the birth. I sat on the floor of my cell making sure I have my diapers blankets onesies and bottles. "Hey Ari.. Kior said holding baby azure she had her eyes opened just looking around. "Hey Kior I'm stressing so bad about this... "it's okay I was the same way .. it's like you can't prepare yourself ... "but miss Angela got my papers ready and We official leave November 24th around 8:30pm
Nooo that's in a few days I said crying. "Girl don't cry!! You finna make cry.. Remember me I told her as I hugged her and azure. She handed me a paper with her phone number. "You just better take care of Karmello and be patient with him that's the best way. And ofc I would never forget you. I tried my best to spend most of my time with Kior... We sat on the Couch and talked about everything. Weather or not her and Darrien was gonna be together and out plans together. I soon then felt a gush come out of me.. I removed the blanket and sure enough my water broke!!! "It's happening Kior said happily... I tried getting up my a felt a sharp contraction it hurted so badd .. ouch Karmello !!! Kior went and grabbed Miss Angela and my things the guards chained my feet up... See you later I told Kior .. she waved... It was night time as I wobbled to the black suv. "How you feeling miss Angela asked me. "In pain.. Miss Angela called my mother and her and Jodie is on the way to the hospital. The ride there didn't take long the contractions was getting closer and closer together. I was in so much pain that I couldn't cry anymore. When we got there Jodie and my mother was there waiting and rushed to my side. "Mom it hurts so bad I don't think I can do this.. "arri !! She said laughing you got too. It was super cold outside and Jodie put his jacket around me and we walked in. After my mother gave them my info we went in the room and I put on the night gown. Soon then Jodie's mother came in.. I laid in the hospital bed: while they stuck the needle in my back pain was sky rocketed. "Ouuuu!!!! Back up !! I told the nurse I was so irritated. "Be nice Nina my mother said she was so happy. Jodie was taking it all in. "I'm ready to see him... he said happily. I was 4 meters dilated.. "the baby is ready to come out the doctor said. Soon then I became numb. "Get ready to push ... 1 2 3 I pushed my hardest and Karmello slipped out he was big and started crying they laid him on my chest and he literally stole Jodie's face. I kissed him as Jodie cut the umbilical cord. The most incredible even that ever happened. A few hours later my mother had to go to work and Jodie stayed. Karmello was in the incubator. The doctors came in every few hours and I signed the birth certificate with Jodie's last name. He was sleep holding Karmello on his chest. I tried moving my legs and thankfully I was able too the guards still stood outside and miss Angela was back at the facility. My mother and Jodie's mother was taking video and pictures all night long. Karmello started getting antsy .. "ight lil man Jodie said he gave him to me and I breast feeded him. He weight 6 lbs and 11 ounces.
"My son really here ... man I wish I I could go home with him... are you done feeding him now. "Jodie hold on like he's not gonna fly away I said laughing. You want him to be a daddies boy so bad. "Mannnn sshhhh... he took him from me while I got up to use the bathroom. "Everything's good Mrs. Carter. The nurse told me.
The next day, I had to go back to the facility and Jodie had work. As I was putting Karmello in his green blanket and his beenie Brandon and Barbie walked in.. "heyyyy !!! Awww he's here!! She screamed.. I was surprised to see her. " I thought you was in Ny .. I was but I had to come visit the baby she grabbed him... "hey Ari ... "hey Brandon... "my nephew finally here... "yeah that boy look just like meee.. ya heard me... "Jodie said feeling proud... I rolled my eyes and began packing up after they held him Jodie buckled him in. "Dang I don't wanna leave this lil man... When you get out ? "Next month on the 24th I told him.. "he carried the car seat all the way to black suv while I carried the baby bag and wobbled as chains was on my feet. "Alright talk to you later... "ight bet.. he gave me a long hug and kissed Karmello... we got in and drove off.
