I missed Barbie and she was coming to spend the night this weekend with her new bf.. my mom said she and him could spend the night as long as we keep the noise down and no drinking. My sister Lanie was supposed to be home with me but she stayed at her university with her bf she didn't wanna lose her scholarship. I washed literally everything my bed sheets my pillow cases and got 2 sleeping bags. Karmello had smashed baby food all over him. "Karmello!! Why baby why!! I took him a quick bath and he took a nap.. I decide to wear my white crop top and red mini skirt... I just wanted to look good for myself after being in jail attire for almost a year. There was a knock on the door I opened it and Barbie didn't waste no time hugging me tightly. "Girlll!!! You look so good I missed you.. "Ari this is my boyfriend Kevin: he was tall had neck tatts and he was dark skinned.. Nice to meet you I said giving him a friendly hug.. "yeah like wise.. we all went to my room and they was inlove with Karmello but he was still sleeping. I grabbed waters and snacks we planned on watching a movie and talking. Soon then Jodie came... "what are you doing here I asked him. "Wymm .. you look good he said giving me a pack of diapers. Wait wait I said before letting him go into my room. "Where you been you always spend the night now you just pop up outta nowhere. "I've been helping my moms at her job to get some extra money and plus football practice. Barbie and her bf is here in my room. "He walked in and said wassup to them. "Y'all making me want a baby .. Kevin said smiling.. "Kevin no you don't I told him laughing. "I put it on the new avengers. I got up and checked on kc he was still sleeping.. Jodie stared at me as I put lipgloss on. "Whaaa I told him... "I can look you ma.. After the movie Barbie decided we should play spin the bottle.. "I don't wanna play cause Barbie be doin to much... "girl cappery.. the four of us played Barbie spinned it and it landed on Jodie. "Okay Jodie you gotta confess your feelings to Ari ... Huhh!! I said he stared at me for a moment: Alright I love Nina and I love how she loves our son... "do you wanna be with her dog.. Kevin said. "I plead the fifth" he said.. I shook my head: we did a few karaoke rounds and and was til up 3.. I was feeding Karmello... and Jodie was up aswell. Karmello go to sleep mommy's tired... Kevin and Barbie was knocked out like they didn't even hear kc screaming just now. "I laid him on the bed in between the 2 of us and he went to sleep. "I want to take kc to the park tomorrow: "who's gonna be there.. "me and the bros... "Noo i don't want it to be any alcohol there. "I promise it's not .. I wanna spend some 1 on 1 time with him.. "ok you can.. I told him.
The weekend went by like breeze and Barbie and Kevin was back on the a flight straight Harlem.
Me and Kior finally got a part time job at the clinic doing desk work: it pays pretty well and I would be able to support my son. My mother has been working a lot lately. I haven't even gotten a chance to speak with her. "Aye mom ... "yeah baby.. she said putting her apron on. "Im gonna take kc to Jodie's house his mom is gonna watch him. "Are u sure ? She said walking down the hall. "Yeah because after work I wanna spend some 1 on 1 time with you. Awww thankyou sweetie I'm sorry I've been busy at work I'm going to retire soon I wanna live the rest of my days freely.. Don't forget to talk to your sister.
My first day of work was pretty easy all I had to do was put in data of the patients work and be detailed as possible: I kept thinking about me and Jodie being together but idk.. I got to work at 5:30 and got off at 1:00pm me and Kior.. I stopped by Jodie's house to pick up Karmello cause I didn't feel like doing it later. "He was sleep in his room on the bed. I haven't been in here in ages...karmello was woke looking around.. come here baby!! I said giving him kisses. I nudge Jodie to wake him up. "He had dried tears on his face which made me be instantly concerned. I sat on his bed while he was officially waking up. " wassup he said .. hold on he went into his bathroom and washed his face. I wanna talk to you come sit... "yeah Whaa happened... "I feel like we haven't had like a real conversation so let's do it now.. I put Karmello on Jodie's bed and he was just staring around moving his feet. I took my shoes off wanting to take a nap but I knew he needed me. "So what's up with your dad I asked him. "He died in a car wreck after you had kc.." it did something to me because I allowed myself to hate him cause he was beating on me. I was scarred.. Tears fell down his face I wiped it and allowed him to rest his head in my lap... My anxiety have gotten worse I try to be strong for you and kc... "awww Jodie you could've told me about how you felt your never alone I love you Jodie I know haven't said it but it's true.. Your dad beating you no child should ever go through that.. and I'm happy your mother left him cause he was crazy.. but you gotta forgive him after that forgive yourself: "I'm trying Nina it's hard... I literally try occupying myself with kc , the homies , football: I got a game coming up at 3:00 on Wednesday my anxiety levels are rising I don't think I could do this pain this life no more.. "JODIE!!! I said about to cry kc needs you !!! I need you don't ever say that ya hear me I kissed his tears and hugged him tightly I knew he needed someone to lean on... After I Fell asleep on his bed.. This night changed me:
