After the trial today was the day where I had a meeting with Mrs.Wang about the baby. And to see if I'm eligible to be put where all the pregnant women are. I don't think I can get used to this. I sat up in my small cell and empty window. I felt closterphobic- I didn't know how to spend my time here but sleep sleep think and sleep. I wonder how Jodie is doing I miss him so much... last time we saw eachother was 3 and half weeks ago when we were separated by 2 police cars. Me and him always spent time together not a day goes by that we didn't speak or hangout.... Times have change and our lives will be changed soon. One of the guards came, chained me up and we walked to Mrs.Wangs office. "Heyy Nina come sit down take those chains off her she's fine she told the guards. Alright so I only have 3 questions for you, she said putting her glasses on. So do you want a abortion ? "Umm no I told her honestly... "okay are you keeping the baby to give it up for adoption ? "No I want the baby. "Okay so if you are not eligible for mom and me program treatment who will be taking your baby ? "My mother I said sadly. "Okay .. we'll then you are eligible for the program.. She checked my blood pressure and gave me two prenatal pills.
"Miss Carter it's time to get you to your new cell follow me. "A female p.o said... she didn't chain me this time maybe because she knew I wouldn't do anything. "Before I left though Mrs. Want gave me a gift Here maybe this can give you hope, she handed me my baby's ultra sound picture. "Awww thanks I hugged her tightly ...
We went outside and it was hot hotter than Kootie brown unfixed air conditioner, felt like I was being baked the back of my neck was burning up. We finally made it to the C building... it was a small building and I could already hear some baby sounds coming from the prison. I never thought jail would allow the mother to keep their child. She unlocked the door and cool air went on my skin. It was spacious and the walls were pink and white.. "Hey Angela ... we got another one her name is Ari Nina Carter we sent the files over here yesterday. Hmmm okay let me see. The black woman said. She had nice long braids down to her butt and she wore glasses she couldn't been no more than 5'0ft tall a lil big boned but she was beautiful. "Okay uh yeah we got it ... hi Ari she said extending her arm happily so I can shake it. "Hello I said back in a low tone... "come have a seat right here as we get you settled in... Thanks p.o
She shut the door to her office so we can have some privacy.
So Ari Nina who came up with you middle name... she said softly giving me a glorious smile. "Umm my grandmother on my fathers side.. Hmm I see so I understand that your father is currently residing in Prison?
Yeah I said slowly... She typed a few things in her keyboard then turned her focus completely on me. "Okay Nina ima call you Nina if that's alright with you but.... Here are the Guidelines of staying in The Department of Labor: a.k.a the c building a.k.a Mommy and Me.
1. No lying always be honest there's no reason to lie
2. You will have to go into the other building until we get a permanent right now nurse for the C building to get your checkups a officer or me will excort you.
3. We do allow you guys to write letters... to loved ones and they can send gifts and things like that aswell.
4. No fighting with any other mother that's here... that will get you a strike and you don't wanna get to 3 strikes privileges will be lost.
5. Last but not least ... you will be eligible for visits 2 days out of the week like I said before if anyone breaks these rules stuff like visitation rights will be tooken from you.
I sat there quietly as she explained everything... something about her makes me feel at ease.
Any questions? No i said looking around. Okay Ari it's okay you're gonna open up to me.... But I am the general counselor and therapist to make sure your mental health is stable and we are going to get you into some classes we have here next in the B building.. Which is literally upstairs. Lights out at 9:30 none of these women share a room except for the pregnant ones so you will be bunking with Kior... umm what else she says looking up at the ceiling.... Ohh you get outside time 2 hours every Monday Thursday and Saturday... you will meet will me if you have any questions or concerns.. The bathroom is down the hall.
After she told me everything she walked me to the jail cell, and handed me some towels and more jail suit attire. Oh and breakfast is at 6:30 and lunch is around 1:30 dinner is around 7:30. She unlocked the door and both mattresses was on the right and the left side. She had word up magazines , twilight and some whitey Houston posters. All I had was my baby ultra sound picture. The room was empty I sat on my new bed and began to feel overwhelmed: I laid back with the pillow over my face... feeling dissociated... a few minutes later I heard Ms. Angela say through the microphone: Doors are closing in 5 minutes be there or be square. I soon then felt a tap on my knee. "Hey the girl said sitting on her bed across from mines. "Hi I said sitting up. "I'm Kior.. she was light-skin and had her curly hair out with a few acne spots she was really pretty I wanted to know what she in for. Her belly was showing a little bit. "So what's your name.. she asked . "I'm Ari ... she nodded her head slowly still staring at me. "What u in for... "um for I think a robbery and high speed chase even though I was not guilty for the robbery charge so they took it off and it still landed me a A year and 6 months. "Ohhhh wowww ... you don't seem like the type she told me. "Well how long you got in here ? " umm I'm doing 11 months because my baby daddy he was doing a drive by and then 5.0 came and I was with him so they took me in but I had previous charges on my record. I think he just got out on bond or bail ... "dang I told her. "Yeah . After greetings We both then drifted to sleep.
