My Diary Thingy That at Times Can be Hilarious

Overthinking like:

Can't sleep...
Makes a scenario in head that I'm starving and I'm forced to run away to aunt's house... then thinks of cutting... then committing suicide in the scenario... then in real life... thinks it through again... WHY AM I SO SAD? IM LISTENING TO THE MOST UPBEAT SONG IN THE WORLD. Upbeat, that's what everyone thinks of you until they realize you're suffering... where did that even come from? Self, you are soooo fat you need to go on a diet. Would it be better if I starved myself or if I hung myself? You get a lot skinnier if you starve, idiot. i know I'm stupid... NO YOURE NOT YOU ARE THE SMARTEST PERSON IN THE WORLD.

this is why I haven't slept for a couple days.....