The Mafia Son's Bodyguard (SuminXJunmin)

Chapter 8

Junmin POV
I woke up in the morning with a splitting headache and walked slowly to my bathroom with a blank head.

I got into the bathroom and opened the small cabinet,
taking out ibuprofen, i took 2 pills and walked to
the mirror.

I looked at my reflection in the mirror and then all the events of last night came back.

I started at my reflection in horror as I remembered his comforting words, his warm arms and how I completely broke down in front of my new bodyguard.

I was embarrassed.
I felt stupid.
How could I let my guard down and be vulnerable in front of a stranger.
He's definitely going to hate me now.

I was in a state of panic
I couldn't breathe
M

y chest hurts
I couldn't scream
No one would bother to help anyways
I'm just a burden
I knew I shouldn't trust anyone
They'll definitely hurt me
I'm so stupid
Everything was blurry
I was trapped deep in my head.
I couldn't stop the tears from steaming down my face.
My trembling hands
Pathetic sobs coming from my mouth.
I couldn't breathe
I was helpless
I couldn't get up
I couldn't scream.
I wanted all this to end.

I want to be free from this world and the sadness in it.

I don't know how long I stayed on the bathroom floor.
I felt the darkness overcome me.

I woke up almost an hour later, with a very sore throat and I could literally feel how puffy my eyes were.

I was still on the bathroom floor and dragged myself up shakily, I'm such a burden, no one came, no one cared, I'm all alone.
I didn't want to, but my body moved on its own.
I opened the drawer and pulled out the razor, I hated the object but loved the feeling it gives me.
It takes my mind of the pain in my chest.

Minjae will be so disappointed if I do it again.
Seeun will be hurt that I kept it from him.
Father will definitely be glad if I'm gone.

But I don't care anymore,
No
I don't want to care anymore
I can't help it
I'm a disappointment anyway.

I crawled into my bathtub and sat comfortably, turned on the tap to fill it with cold water.
Then pressed the razor firmly on my wrist and cut.

One
Two
Three

I kept on doing it till I felt numb and satisfied, going from my hands to my thigh
I looked at the blood dripping from my body into the tub.
I just sat still and watched the water turn red.

"I'm not okay" I broke down again.

A pathetic whimper leaving my lips.

"Why can't I get over small things?"
"Why am I not getting better?"
"Why?"

I keep asking myself but I couldn't seem to find the answer.

I was deep in thought still in the tub when I heard my room door open.

"Hey bitch, I brought snacks" I heard Minjae yell from my room, I panicked and tried to hide even if I knew it was useless to try. I knew it wouldn't take him seconds to come in.

"Boo" He said as he bursts into the bathroom and froze on the spot. After a few seconds,
he seemed to realize what was going on and immediately rushed towards me.

"Oh my God, Why?" He asked as he started crying
"You promised", I just sat there looking at him with my mind full of regret.

"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry" my whole body trembling violently as I started crying again. I knew he wouldn't buy my pathetic excuse of an apology.

I failed him.

We just kept crying as he helped me out of the tub.
He helped me sit on the toilet and started dressing my cuts, I sat there and watched his everymove,
I love him so much, he probably doesn't know how much I do.

He finished dressing my cuts and we walked back to my room.

"Do you want to talk about it" he asked "What happened"

I told him about last night and about how Sumin probably hates me now.

He sat by my side, rubbing comforting circles on my back as I talked about everything, he never judged me and the choices I make.

We watched movies all night while eating snacks and a big tub of ice cream.

I felt better by the end of the day when we cuddled  to sleep.

Minjae POV

Our night went pretty well, I was still on my phone chatting with this new guy I met at the mall last week, I was having fun until Min started trashing around on the bed.

"Fuck" It's happening again, I panicked and tried waking him.

"Min?, Min can you hear me?" I asked in a shaky voice trying not to panic.

"No" he mumbled with his eyes still closed.

I almost felt releived, until I heard him say
"No, I'm not going back there, I can't"

I kept talking to him trying to get him out of there.

It took a while before he finally opened his eyes, I brought him in for another hug

"Why are you here?" He groaned "my throat hurts".

"I slept over, remember?" I said while passing him a cup of water from the nightstand.

He eventually calmed down and I fell asleep cuddling him.

935 words
New POV unlocked.
Jinsik will finally make an appearance in the next chapter.
Sumin's POV will be in the next chapter too.
Have a good day y'all.