Kim and Alix one shot (mlb)

I cant do it

TG: Angst. Mommy issues, suicidal thoughts etc..
17 year old (at the end of high school)
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Alix sight, sitting on a building at the edge of the river. She's cold. She's hurt. She wants to die.
She shakes her head, she doesn't know what to think. Her head weighs 10kg more than usual, and the blood on her wrists hurts with the wind passing by.

One thing you need to know about Alix, is that she has had a very hard life. Well she didn't use to. Her family used to be really close and loving. Her parents loved each other and loved spending time with each other and their kids.

Her mother left when Alix was 8. A new wealthy men made an appearance on every tv show and magasines, spending only a month a Paris. That's the only thing that it took, one month. She left, barely saying goodbye to Alix. Alix and her mom loved each other, but they did not like each other. Her mother was always so worried about her ''bossy'' personality, saying that it was going to hurt her one day. Guess what? She hurt her first.

Making friends was always a tough situation. Alix had two childhood friends, Marinette and Nino, even if they were much closer than she is, she loved them a lot.
But friends couldn't understand. They pretty much all had happy family. She couldn't talk about it to anyone. She felt so alone.

She was leaving Kim's house. She had a particularly rough fight with him. They have been dating for a little over a year now. Alix was trying to make it work, she really was. But her demons were stronger, her fear of abandonment being stronger the more she got attached. And today, she put the wall between them.

It was something stupid, really. She realised she got attached, created a dumb fight, and left. Nothing new for her, and yet, it still hurts.

And as she was sitting on the edge, she was contemplating. She wanted to jump.

She had enough, she was living the life she never wanted. she wanted to love, she wanted happiness, and yet, she couldn't be happy. 

The fall wasn't very high, she knew she would die.

A big expiration .

Her feet left the ground

And as she was falling, memories were flashing. 

Her fiers play date with Marinette and Nino. Her first day at school. The song her mother used to play a lot. 

Kim

Alix regretted. 

But it was too late.

And the current was to strong to swim in. 

So as she fell in the water, she had no more will. she stood still. 

Perhaps someone would notice she wasn't here anymore.

She was doubting tho.