<He loves you and that scares him more than anything>
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|Kian|
HALF-WAY REMOVING my t-shirt, I paused. Jadesola finally knew, the pregnancy test in her right palm and the glare on her expression attested to that.
It would be a futile attempt to lie so I sucked in a ragged breath and let my hands fall away. "Yeah, I was aware but wasn't sure."
"Why didn't you tell me?" Her stormy eyes flashed.
I advanced close to reach out for her trembling form but she held a hand out, snapping in a livid tone, "Why didn't you tell me, Kian?!! Why?!!"
Fuck.
Raking nervous fingers through the strands of my hair, I expelled a tired sigh. "I thought you didn't want a baby, Jade."
"No, that's a lie." She jerked her head to and fro, her braids swaying with that movement. "You thought I would abort it like Rina?" It wasn't a question. It was a statement.
Dumbfounded, I stopped short, at a loss at what to say. Her sentence had stuck an excruciating chord in me, the real reason why I'd actually kept her in the dark, an elephant in the room. I hadn't known it then, but a part of me was scared she would abort the child.
"Your silence tells me the truth." Hurt glistened in her amber depths. "Now, I don't know whether I'm angry at you for hiding the truth from me or knowing you believed I was capable of killing my own child."
"Fuck." Cursing, I closed my eyes and pinched the bridge of my nose, frustrated. When I reopened them, she was still seething, a scowl contorting the planes of her beautiful face.
My arms fell to my side in defeat and I apologized softly, "I'm sorry, okay? So please, just hear me out here. Do you remember when I asked you about having kids? Your reply wasn't exactly reassuring so while I suspected you were pregnant, I didn't want to tell you. And yes, I admit, I was scared at the possibility that you might abort our child and right now, I am really ashamed. It is a horrible thing to think, because while my heart believed you wouldn't do it, my brain was just scared. Not, after what Rina did. Also, I didn't want you to be saddled with a burden I casted on you. Because this pregnancy is my fault."
"Yes it is your fault, Kian!" Jadesola brandished the test, like a mini-weapon as she inched closer. Her honey eyes blazed so hot, I could feel the scalding burn on my exposed skin. Like a lance spearing my heart, shredding it apart.
She screamed, anger dripping off her tone, "Every fucking thing is always your fucking fault! You knew I didn't want children, yet you came inside me. I was already pregnant, so there was no need sparing me from your cum when I'm knocked up, yeah?!"
Shit. She wasn't letting me go easily. I regarded her through downcast eyes, watching her unravel into tiny, torn pieces.
Her naked body quivering with the extent of her wrath, she stabbed the tiny plastic in my chest viciously, propelling me back. As she made a point, she hit the center of my chest, her accent thick, her voice rising an octave with every strike. "And even if I wasn't pregnant, you were doing it against my will. You held me down wherever you came."
A violent stab. "You refused to pull out because you wanted me pregnant."
Another savage hit. "You desired that so badly and that shit pissed me off because whenever I questioned you, you deflected my questions with lies! Lies that made me feel like a bad person for doubting your actions!!"
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On His Terms
Romance"You can have me, Kian," I whispered, elation that my plan was coming into play, making my voice low. "Are you sure? Because you don't know, Jade. You," a deep groan escaped him, the rumble of his words vibrating against the arch of my throat, "don...
