My Wife Dr O'Hara

Chapter 21,  flashback

Reader's PoV:

I finally walked into my flat after another hour of crying and drinking with Lisa, I'm still no closer to working out what I was going to do about my situation with Olivia and Eleanor, if I choose Olivia am going to lose Eleanor, there is no doubt in my mind about that. if I choose Eleanor, will I lose Olivia? I have no idea; I just couldn't bare the thought of losing either one of them.

I could have never imagined that having a one-night stand with Eleanor, would bring out so many emotions within me, I mean I had said yes to a second date for crying out loud, I start to wonder by agreeing to a second date had I agreed to some kind of relationship? I had no idea what am supposed to be doing, if I keep seeing Eleanor hopefully in time Olivia and I can just be friends, as I know me and Eleanor could never be friends, there is just one thing, would Eleanor mind if Olivia and I remained friends? I couldn't imagine Eleanor would like me or anyone she is dating to remain friends with they EXs.

I could feel a headache starting to form, and not just from the alcohol, making my way into the kitchen, I get myself a glass of water to help ease the headache after drinking it in one, I pour myself another glass of water before making my way into my living area, I consider calling Eleanor for a moment maybe talking with her would help, maybe I could find a way to being up the subject of me and Olivia being friends.

I set down on the sofa taking out my phone, I take a moment to myself, trying to decide if it was a good or bad idea to call her, when a photo of myself and Olivia sitting on the end table by the sofa, catches my eye, placing the phone down on the end-table I pick up the photo, that had been a great afternoon.

"Flashback:"

"It's just up here" Olivia tells me, not letting go of my hand as we continue hiking up to the top of the hill.

"Olivia, you said that ten minutes ago," I tell her, not that I minded hiking, on the contrary I enjoy hiking, especially with Olivia, since we barely get anytime to ourselves at the moment with our jobs, that why am surprise Olivia has managed to find us a new trail to hike.

"Trust me my love, you are going to love it," Olivia tells me, stopping for a moment to turn towards me so that she could give me a light kiss on my lips.

"mmm," I smile at her as I lick my lips leaning in for another kiss, "keep that up and we will never make it to wherever you're taking me, because I will take you right here, right now," I warn her placing my free hand on her arse pulling her closer to me.

"Fun as that sounds, I don't want to have to arrest you for public indecency," Olivia says laughing as she also gave my arse a little smack before pulling away from me, not letting go of my hand as she carries on walking pulling me along with her, "had I told you that I love you today?" Olivia asked me giving my hand a little squeeze.

"No, you can tell me now," I reply with a chuckle, pulling her back to me, wrapping my free arm around her, "tell me," I said as I rub my nose against her nose giving her a nose kiss.

"I love you, happy now?" Olivia asked me, kissing my nose lightly before pulling back from me, smiling like idiots we continue to walk in silents, as we take in the beauty of our surroundings as we listen to the sounds of the birds singing, "we are here," Olivia says as we come to a clearing, I was amazed that a place like this existed in New York.

"Oh Olivia, it's gorgeous," I said looking out at the beautiful landscape in front of me, completely mesmerise, I closed my eyes, tilting my face upwards, feeling the warmth of the sun on my face, allowing myself to get lost in this moment.

"y/n?" Olivia called me softly, I open my eyes, turning to look at her, only to find her on one knee with an open ring box in her hands, with a beautiful diamond ring inside, I let out a small gasp, "I know this past year has been hard on us both, the only reason we got through it was because we have each other, and I want to spend the rest of my life with you, going through both the good times and the hard times, y/n I love you, will you do me the honour by agreeing to marry me?" Olivia asked with hope in her eyes.

"Olivia my love, we have been together for four years and known each other for five years, you're my best friend so yes of course I will marry you," I answer, holding out my hand, Olivia slit the ring on my finger before getting up and pulling me into a kiss.

End Flashback: 
 

I placed the photo back down on the end table, Olivia and I have known each other for over six years now, we knew each other professionally for a year, then became friends after I had gone out one night with the girls from work, where I saw Olivia sitting by herself in the corner of the bar, I walked over to her to see if she would like some company, only to find out she was working undercover, she told me to sit down as I was about to leave, why talking I send a text message to the girls telling them not to come over.

Not long after that night we have started seeing each other, as friends at first meeting up for drinks, sometimes Olivia would stop by the hospital and take me out to lunch, on my days off I would do the same to her, we also ended up going to see films together or just hanging out at one another places, we had built up a nice friendships over those six months, until one night we had a little too much to drink and had ended up in bed together, we hadn't been able to talk about it the next morning as i had to get home to have a shower and change my clothes and Olivia had been called into work early.

I had told Lisa what had happened between us, and she had pointed out that we had been dating for six months, even though we didn't realise it, I decided to go and speak with Olivia on my break, however I guess Olivia had the same idea as she had turned up at the hospital requesting to speak to me, we talked about what happened between us and neither one of us regret what happened, we both had also agreed we had indeed been dating for six months only we had both been too stupid to realise it at the time, Olivia asked me out that night on our first official date, by then we had known each other for a whole year and a half, after another three years of dating on and off Olivia had finally popped the question, only to of ended our relationship seven months later.

I know in my heart that a part of me will always be in love with Olivia, that's why I am holding on to hope that we can still make our relationship work, because I understand why Olivia felt she had to end things, it wasn't just because our jobs got in the way, that was only part of it, she wanted to make sure that I was safe, safe from him... no I mustn't let my mind go there, I don't blame Olivia, it wasn't her fault, she did what she had to do.

Shaking my head slightly in attempt to get rid of these dark thoughts, thoughts I hadn't allowed myself to think about in months, then again I'll had other things on my mind, things like Eleanor who has turned my whole world upside down.

Taking this job was meant to be a fresh start, away to give us both some space, that we both needed, to put things into perspective, Olivia had kept checking up on me, to make sure I was safe, to the point I had talked her in to having dinner with me, two days before I had started at all saints hospital, two days before I had met Eleanor, I let out a little chuckle at the memory of seeing Eleanor for the first time with that little boy hugging her legs, and how wrong I had been about her.

I also remember how Olivia had turned up at the end of my shift that first day to surprise me, I had run into her arms, remembering I was going to kiss her after she put me back down, but for some reason I didn't kiss Olivia, why didn't I kiss her that night in front of the hospital? I had kissed her later that night outside my building, I had also kissed her when we had gone out for dinner two days before, so what had stopped me from kissing her outside the hospital?

"Eleanor," I said out loud as I realise that I hadn't wanted to kiss Olivia in front of Eleanor, "Oh my god...I liked her even back then," I said as the realisation hit me like a ton of bricks, as I remembered all those times, we had kept looking at each other's lips when we were having a disagreement or just in each other's present, just then in a flash, a memory of Eleanor reaching across the table, taking a hold of my hand at the restaurant, and how easy it was just being around her, made a smile appeared on my face, I love Olivia, however I'm falling in love with Eleanor.

To Be Continued: