Yours Truly

Yours Truly Chapter 2

I woke up last night

From a dream that seemed crystal clear

And it's making my head feel tight

I know that you are gone now

And I know that I am just hoping

But one day I will once again see you

That thought is my only way of coping

The leaves are coming back now

Not like the winter was harsh

And I wish I could say everyone's adjusted 

But we're all stuck in some mud infested marsh

My new job is a living disaster

God the people here are insane

And I'm starting to miss our old Hawkins

Which is now anything but mundane

El seems so much older

And I'm worried she's had to grow up too soon

Will is awfully quiet

And Jonathan may as well be on the moon

Murray is kind of my friend now

He's ringing my phone off the wall

And for God's sake I know that he means well

But I might scream if I get one more call

And I'm sick of selling encyclopedias

And I'm stuck at home all day

I've fooled people into thinking 

That everything's fine and I'm okay

But I don't know who I am kidding'

I think about you

Dusk 'til dawn

You know I used to think I was organized

But now everything is a mess

And I feel so strange and so different

God

The other day I even wore a dress

This new life is hardly for me Hop

And it's already 1986

Sometimes I feel like I'm ancient

Gosh let's throw that one too in the mix

And I always feel exhausted

But I can hardly ever fall asleep

And I want to murder my alarm clock

That goddamn annoying little beep

The other day somebody asked me 

Where my house was

And I gave my Hawkins address

See Hop, I'm falling to pieces

This California sh*t is a mess

El came into my bedroom

And we talked and she called me 'Mom' 

And as happy I was to hear that

It should of been her calling you 'Dad'

I've always overthought things

Always doubted every word I say

And it's only gotten worse since

I lost you

And gosh

It's not even May

Time slows down when you're not here

To pass the hours with me

And I know that this sounds kinda cheesy

But to be honest

I'm really lonely

You were my only real friend Hop

And now I'm back to square one

And my chance at a fresh start is none

Because there is no future without you

No way

Am I leaving you behind

And this is what we are left with

Not what I expected at all

But then

I didn't expect my son to go missing

And then

Be found in the fr*king Upside Down

I didn't expect any of '83

or '84 and most certainly not '85

And now it's 1986

And 

I'm struggling to survive

Yours Truly,

Joyce

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