Yours Truly

Yours Truly Chapter 6

(A/N: I know the image says 1960, but 1959 works better for me also Joyce would be turning nineteen but she's turning seventeen so I can make the Heathers reference simply for Winona's sake and idk why but I feel like Jopper would have been a JDronica kind of relationship minus the murder (although who knows ?) -we'll just call it artistic license 😜 )

*TW: This chapter contains mention of implied suicide, please read with discretion and seek help immediately if needed*

A photograph from 1959

That I try not to look at

Most of the time

But your eyes are still boring 

Into the back of my head

So sometimes 

I take it out and look at you instead

It only makes me cry harder

I'm making worse for myself I know

But I love this image to pieces

It's more than just a photo

I don't remember who took it

Although I'm sure as hell you do

We were still young and reckless

Innocent and naive too

I had just turned seventeen

And so had you

My friends didn't really like you

But to be honest I didn't really like them

You were kind of my boyfriend

And also kind of not

Do you remember that Jim

Or have you already forgot

How everyday for a year

You would leave me a note

With a poem or some kind of trash

That you claimed to me you

Wrote

And did you want to know a secret

Cos I kind of still have them Hop

And I knew exactly where

I took down the box

When the kids weren't there

And I sifted through the box with my hand

Of despair

"Your smile brings me to tears but not as much when you tell me you love me"

I never told you I loved you

Except for once

When I was fifteen and drunk

You drove me home and I brought you close

And whispered three words

I will never regret

Because regretting the truth is as bad as

Forgetting

"Meet me at our spot. Who do you have fifth? Wanna skip?"

Yeah Hop

I do

There's nothing more in the world 

I want right now

Than to skip science with Mr Hodges

And smoke with you on the steps

But I can't 

I can't smoke with you anywhere

I can't be with you anywhere

Unless I'm dead

I would die for you Hop

And I've been thinking about it too

But I can't 

The kids mean too much

And it would kill El to lose someone else

And I won't ever be that person

I'll stay alive with the tiniest glimmer of hope

Because

 I love you

And love 

Can always be the glimmer

Even if you think you don't have one

There are at least five people in the world who love you

With all of their heart

And I'm one of them 

Jim

I'm one of them

Yours Truly,

Joyce

(A/N: Sorry about the chaos earlier in the chapter but I hope you liked it and as always stay safe, keep reading, don't forget to comment and vote and stay totally tubular xx)