5 am
I'm already awake
Cos I could hear voices
The sound of a rake
6 am
I'm up and about
Not thinking of you
What other lies can I spout
7 am
Sitting at work
Calling your number
Reality looking down
With a torturous smirk
8 am
I'm crying again
Thinking of us
And what we'd've
Became
9 am
This day's getting old
But I sit anyway and do as I'm
Told
10 am
Doodling your name
Like we're still fifteen and this is some sort of game
11 am
And I'm falling apart
Hiding my sorrow
Deep in my heart
12 pm
I'm crying your name
But keep it together
Don't show any pain
1 pm
I'm biting my nails
I'm tired and anxious
I can't fall off the rails
2 pm
It's turning to pieces
I love you
I miss you
The feeling never ceases
3 pm
I swear I was never this much of a
Mess
But it's getting to me
The grief and the stress
4 pm
I'm losing myself
But I've lost those that matter
And I can't turn back the clock
5 pm
I done with today
But the kids are back home
Act like everything's normal
Don't show the pain
6 pm
Let's suffer through dinner
Awkward conversations
God
Who's the winner
7 pm
El is crying
She's scared and it's hurting me
What to say without lying
8 pm
I'm sitting alone
Drying empty tears
My heart can't condone
9 pm
The night's begun
The sickening guilt
Arriving
Through tales
That we once spun
10 pm
I see you
Your name written in the stars
Just know I'm somewhere
Out here
Watching from afar
You're the brightest star in the sky
I see you every night
And every tear I cry
Is for you
Yours Truly,
Joyce
(A/N: Helloooo sorry this chapter is so depressing lmao- I promise things are going to get better soon and the whole alaska crew thing will happen :) I'm also writing another story at the moment and I'll post it on Wattpad soon. Also thinking of writing an Elmax fanfic so if you have any ideas on it let me know in the comments! Dont forget to comment and vote, stay totally tubular and I'll see you in the next one! Huge shoutout to mmmushroom27 and Theweirdohhhhh for all the support!)
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PoetryCHARACTERS ARE CREATED BY THE DUFFER BROTHERS AND NETFLIX AND I DO NOT CLAIM TO OWN ANY OF THESE CHARCTERS A Jopper fanfic/fanpoetry set after the events of Stranger Things Season 3. It is a series of letters/poems that Joyce writes to Hopper in his...