Yours Truly Chapter 8

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5 am 

I'm already awake

Cos I could hear voices

The sound of a rake

6 am

I'm up and about

Not thinking of you

What other lies can I spout

7 am

Sitting at work

Calling your number

Reality looking down

With a torturous smirk

8 am

I'm crying again

Thinking of us

And what we'd've 

Became

9 am

This day's getting old

But I sit anyway and do as I'm 

Told

10 am

Doodling your name

Like we're still fifteen and this is some sort of game

11 am

And I'm falling apart

Hiding my sorrow

Deep in my heart

12 pm

I'm crying your name

But keep it together

Don't show any pain

1 pm

I'm biting my nails

I'm tired and anxious

I can't fall off the rails

2 pm

It's turning to pieces

I love you

I miss you

The feeling never ceases

3 pm

I swear I was never this much of a

Mess

But it's getting to me

The grief and the stress

4 pm

I'm losing myself

But I've lost those that matter

And I can't turn back the clock

5 pm

I done with today

But the kids are back home

Act like everything's normal

Don't show the pain

6 pm

Let's suffer through dinner

Awkward conversations

God

Who's the winner

7 pm

El is crying

She's scared and it's hurting me

What to say without lying

8 pm

I'm sitting alone

Drying empty tears

My heart can't condone

9 pm

The night's begun

The sickening guilt

Arriving 

Through tales

That we once spun

10 pm

I see you

Your name written in the stars

Just know I'm somewhere

Out here

Watching from afar

You're the brightest star in the sky

I see you every night

And every tear I cry

Is for you

Yours Truly,

Joyce

(A/N: Helloooo sorry this chapter is so depressing lmao- I promise things are going to get better soon and the whole alaska crew thing will happen :) I'm also writing another story at the moment and I'll post it on Wattpad soon. Also thinking of writing an Elmax fanfic so if you have any ideas on it let me know in the comments! Dont forget to comment and vote, stay totally tubular and I'll see you in the next one! Huge shoutout         to mmmushroom27 and Theweirdohhhhh for all the support!)

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