Las Vegas

12. Why i should not okay

Bright
I think i love you

This is just the begining. I cant describe how i felt like now. But i love to live with him. I love to have love bickering with him. I love his naughty smille. I love his good and bad part. I felt like we complete each other. All i need is trust and respect each other. Love and caring is extra benefit for someone in our situation. We stay together because both of us need support not because he love me. Now i am a bit scare of losing him. What will i do if he found his real love.

My life after the grand proposal and the grand wedding change drasticly. I know how powerful his name is but after the memorable beautiful wedding i cant live like a normal person anymore. I need to be carefull for every step i take. Its not the family presuring me to be at my best all the time, but it what i want and willing to do. I dont want to be a shame to my husband. He is still the same guy but become more shameless, clingy and needy. I really still adjusting to this new found characteristic of him.

The only thing i hate after we announce our marriage is, at any event or press conference i have, they will always ask questions regarding to my in law family and husband since the family is very prestige and hardly seen in media social.
Most important thing is how they react when they know who phi mile is. Before this he never admit that he is the heir of Romsaithong. Every one know that he is one of the richest artist but  he never use his family name. After our wedding announcement i can see how people change their attitude toward me and especially phi mile. I know i cant be like other jelous husband but somehow i felt annoy when i can see how others openly flirt with my husband. I never feel proud of my visual but in our situation now i am very thankful for my visual. At least i have one thing to be superior  with. I really hate all the man and woman who openly flirt with my husband and the sad part i cant say anything about it. I just hope my husband dont breach my fifth rules. That how i live now. Look so glamorous but deep inside everything is uncertainty. Its only because of that incident. He never say he love me. So i will just enjoy the moment the fullest with what we have right now.

What are you thinking about suddenly phi mile come and lift me, bring me in the room. Its cold outside, you should be carefull kitten he said while slowly drop me on the sofa. Nothing i just think about mylife i said and smile . Not thinking about me he ask teasing me.  A little bit i reply and laugh. I hope you can think of me more he said pretend to be sulky. I just smile and giggle but i felt butterfly in my stomach and my heart beat faster. Its his thing being the sweet talker. I need to guard my heart tightly. He mean nothing bad but i still need to be carefull. Can i have you tonight kitten he ask me with excited eyes. The eyes that make me felt loved and cared.  I look at him and playfully ask, can i said no. He look at me and suddenly think deeper. You have no concert or any hard shooting so you cant he said soft and gentle. Can i kitten he ask me again. I slow reach his face and peck his lips. He get the hint and quickly bring me to our bed. I know we will have a long night.

What wrong i ask him when he look a bit tired and out of mind. He slowly pull me closer and hug me softly. Are you tired i ask him. I know he are more focus on business and rarely accept any event now. His life become tougher as the role as the heir are coming faster because his dad health. I am so sorry for that but he like always embarace everything happen in his life calmly just like my case. I cant imagine if all the accident are with anyone else. No, i felt relax  when i see you he said and kiss my lips. Sweet talker i said and he just chukle. Dont you believe me he ask me. I nod and kiss him back.  It was our sweet flirt and make out session. I love  moment like this the most. I felt like i am his real love and the most important person in his life.

Is that phi mile win ask me when he see phi mile and apo walk into the hotel. Hermm i said and quickly pull win to leave the place. I can feel my heart beat harder. Hey what wrong win ask me. Nothing, i need to go now i said and try to smile. Its okay bright i slowly comfort myself. You cant blame him . Two years are already too much i thought.

I keep looking at our second annivesary event. Again he suprise me with grand event. Become the talk of the town. He look so sincere. Hi kitten what are you doing he ask me like usual.  Like always he kiss me and hug me. I miss you so much he said while hugging me.. ermmm i said and hug him back. What are you doing he ask again. Nothing i just look at our anivesarry. I really live in fairytale. I just wondering will this dream end i said and look at him.  Silly, this is not dream. Have you forgot our steamy night he ask me with his teasing smile. I slowly chuckle. Yes, you are right. Take a rest first, i want to be alone with mom. I miss her so much today i said while touching his face gently. He now look straight into my eyes. Are you okay he ask me seriously. Yes , why should i not okay i ask.

10.08.23