Las Vegas

5. Am i make a right choice

Mile
I am not fine phi

We are too busy with our hectic schedule . I dont have time to handle our divorce and sometime i forget about it. Every time i want to sleep i promise myself to setle about the divorce on next day and its already two month.  Plus bright also very passive and not pushing me. Until today apo still ghosting me for real this time. And again i dont feel really angry, or sad because all the way of our relation i am the one who making an effort so i dont feel like i was losing something. I will be the one who beg and persuading him. But for now i play like nothing happen because i must be really hurt this time. Not only because of my proposal but i think he dont trust me.
Beside that I also cant forget my promise to bright mom. So i make sure i message him at least twice a day and when he really okay i will stop worriying about him. Maybe the relation we have now make me always alert about him. I know he will go to his mom house to packing and distribute all her belonging to charity. I am suppose to meet apo but i choose to wait for him here. I think i am most needed here now. The way he look suprise and worry look so adorable.

Not today, i said. I am too busy right now. I am sorry for the delay, i said and appologize. Its okay phi, its okay for me but i am worry about you,  he said and smile. Then why are you here phi, he ask me. I will help you to packing my beautiful mother in law lovely belonging,  i said teasing him, try to lighter his mood. He look at me for a while and finally smile and chuckle softly. Since i know him i never see his genuine smile. He look so sweet and beautiful. You should smile more i said.  Lets go , you need to drive your mom old car back right i ask him. Again he look at me with his suprise big eyes. I read your interview, i said and now he smile sweetly again. Thank you phi, he said when he sit beside me.

When we arrive i can see a group of mover waiting for us. Bright look at me again. Even both of us strong healthy guy, we really need help, i said. I promise we will make sure you check every item before they seal the box for charity. Is it okay with you, i ask him. After a moment he nod and quickly open the long ignore house. I am home mom, he whisper slowly but since i am close to him i can hear it. I know his emotion will be like roller coaster right now. So i want to be here for him. With the help of the mover we finally finish packing up within half of day.  He choose and select all his mom belonging carefully. I know it will be emotional when the mover start moving the box. I choose the mover and paid them tripple to make sure they respect all his mom belonging. All them so respectful because i personally ask them  and explain why i want it this way. Its like sending his mom go and he will start new life. I dont want he feel any regret. That my aim for today. Helping him to send his mom without any regret.

He carefully hug the box he want to keep and walk to his mom car. We can arrange for next trip if you are tired, i said. He shake his head. No phi, i am worry that i cant be strong like today next time, he said. Now we look at the empty house. He will donate the house to NGO who are helping single mother like his mom. So, i think their moral value is so beautiful, both him and his mom. I still carefully follow him from the behind even he ask me to leave and he will manage himself. I know tonight will be very emotional and i am willing to help him. He carefully park his mom car in the garrage. Until he can let it go he will keep it with him. Its really cute old car. But i trust it is more value than any sport car he have right now.

So you dont want to buy me a food, i ask him. I know i need to push him before he chase me home. He now look guilty and quickly offer me to get into his house. Its very warm and cozy house. Very humble and elegant at the same time. His house really show his persona. Even he is the most popular with highest income he still live a humble life.
He quickly rearrange his script and a few notes at the table. Please sit phi he said with embarace eyes.  I just laugh and look around. He is consider clean and neat person but not that super neat guy.I will cook he said suddenly. I look at him with i interesting eyes. If i am not mistaken he is not a good cook.  What do you want to cook, i ask him. He a bit shy. I will make a fried rice. That the only thing i know, he said. Is it okay with you phi, he ask me. I nod and walk behind him to the kicthen. You can wait at the living room he said but i choose to sit at his bar counter. He immediately serve me a can of beer. Maybe the brand he represent right now. He look so ackward cooking but trying his best.
When we sometime look at each other we just chuckle. I feel very comfort and easy with him. I dont need to try hard and he is very cool and kind. He dont mind showing his bad and good side.
All i do now looking at him carefully and ask myself  why i never felt this way with apo. Am i make a right choice.

07.08.23