Las Vegas

3. What should i do

Mile
I am confuse

People filing to dissolve their marriage need only give one of three reasons: The spouses are incompatible, The spouses have lived separately for at least 1 year, or one spouse has been legally insane for at least 2 years before the other spouse files for divorce.we also need to residing here for six weeks which is not in our case right now. I keep on serching on the method of divorce and try to get some information. So now ,i am here at bright room to talk about this but what i see now is a heart broken person and i am part of the reason of it. He look weak and need help.

Tomorrow we will go to the court, i said and he only nod agree with anything i said. You should eat now. I am sorry for your break up, i said try to comfort him.
Its okay, its my mistake and i really hope everything will stop here, he said. Can we keep it a secret phi, he ask me. Dont worry i said and look at the sweet guy who heart broken now. I never thought to face this. I only can sit here silently and enjoy the quiet moment.
I know how he feel right now , because i cant contact apo and he is ghosting me right now. I really sad on his reaction but i know its my fault. I cant control myself. Everything happen because i lost control. I should be more understanding and cant angry about my failed proposal. He did not know, i keep trying to heal my own self.

I look at him who now look panic after received a call. He keep trying to call win but win did not answer. Win still angry. I think win purposely ignore his call. What wrong, i ask him. What should i do phi.. my mom, he said and start crying. What happen i ask him. Her condition suddenly getting worse, i need to go home now. But i cant contact win. He said and keep trying. I cant go with you tomorrow. Can you wait a bit, he ask me desprately. I quickly hold his hand and pull him. Lets go now, i said. He look lost and follow my lead. I run to my room before help him to check out. Lets go, i said. We are at the other side of the world. I know he need to wait for earliest flight. It will take longer time than he need. So i immediately use my private plane. I mean, i really want to help him. He look so scare right now.

Its my mom who ask me and win for vocation. She felt guilty when i am busy with my work and her at the hospital. She think i dont give enough time to win, that why he ask me to go on travel for her. She is fighting with cancer. I should not listen to her, he said while crying and keep praying. Dont worry she will be alright, i said try to comfort him.
After 15 hours flight now i and bright run to my family car. Rushing to the hospital. Thank you phi, he said weakly and get out of the car. I look at him and i cant hold myself anymore. I quickly get out and run to him. Let me accompany you, i said and walk beside him.

It was so quiet. We can only hear the beeping sound from the life support machine. I can see how the nurse he hired also cry. Bright, she said and hug him tight. Doctor ask us to be prepare she said slowly. He just nod and walk to his mom with his tired body. Mom, he call her softly. I am here now, he said and kiss his mother hand. That gesture make his mom open her eyes. How are you baby, she ask with difficulity. I am fine mom he said try to smile for his mother. You should be fine too he said. His mother just nod weakly. Is he your husband,  she ask him slowly. Both of us so shock and look at each other. How did she know. I have a dream of you walking on the isle with handsome guy, she said slowly. God must be pity me at last. I never pray for myself. I always pray that you wont be alone after i leave you, she said with the tears. No i have you, i wont be alone he said sadly. I know he refuse to accept any posibility and make his mom sad with his tears. He being brave, trying to smile and look at his mom. Come here, let me see you she suddenly call me. I walk to her and hold her hand. I am right, you are not metawin, You must be the handsome guy i dream off, she said and try her best to talk. Can you promise to take care of my son,  she plead humbly. I have not choice but to agree. I wont let this dying soul to be more sad. I promise, i said. Thank you, i know both of you will be okay, she said again and smile beautifuly with her pale face.

It was at dawn when she finally pass away. I really cant bring myself to leave them because i know he wont care about anything in this situation. So like a real husband i stay beside him even he maybe dont notice i was here all along.
I quietly handle all his mom document in the hospital. I really cant leave. I unconsiously arrange and manage his mom funeral. Its on 3rd day i find metawin running to bright and give him tight hug but bright look so out of the world. Win only can sigh when bright bow down to him like his other visitor. I am trying hard to be invisible and i am really suprised when bright refuse win help. But win stubbornly stay with him till the end of funeral. I really need to leave now because i have schedule and need to see apo. I slowly walk to bright.
Lets go, i will send you home, i offer but he refuse mentioning that he want to accompony his mom a bit more. I finally decided to leave and bow to his mother memorial. We will talk later, i said. Again he nod without any word.

I am rushing to my shoot so i quickly leave him after i said good bye. Before i leave the door i turn back and what waiting for me is fainted bright on the floor. I quickly run to him. What should i do now.

06.08.12