Las Vegas

4. How are you

Bright
Just leave it to destiny

I felt really tired. This previous months i become more busy because my mom condition getting worse. Mom, i miss my mom. Its not real. Its only a dream. When i wakeup she will be with me again. But i need to sleep first i am so tired. I cant even lift my finger. I promise i will just sleep for a while. My fans will worry and win will scold me. I just want to sleep for a while. Mom will be home when i awake later my mind keep thinking and working. I am exhausted. I am scare and have so many thing to do. Bright, i hear someone call me. Its not my mom and its not win. Bright, he call a bit louder. I am a bit scare and worry so i force myself to open my eyes. Its take me a few minute and when i open i look at a stranger face who look worry. I cant help but cry when i see phi mile. I know my dream will never come true.

He carefully hug me. You are doing great. You can cry as much as you want. Dont worry i will help you, he said while patting my head. I never thought in my worst day i was with some stranger with title my husband who are full of compasion and very patient. I imagine to face all of this with my all time best friend and boyfriend who i dont know where now. I know i cant blame him because i push him away and i reject his offer. Maybe because i am at my worst, i hug phi mile tightly. Its okay, he keep saying and comforting me. After i calm down i slowly distance myself and look at phi mile. Are you okay now, he ask me worrily. I nod and wiping my tears. Then i notice i am at some unknown place. Where am i phi, i ask slowly. I am sorry, i dont know where your house is and i cant contact mentawin he said. I have to bring you here because you are fainted he add. Oh thank you, i said slowly.

i am sorry, but we can start proceeding the divorce, i said and look at him.
Can we do it here phi, or we need to go to vegas again, i ask him.
Bright take it easy. Its not important now. You are in tough position now. We can do it later. Dont worry i am willing to wait. Take your time, he said gently.
Can you stay alone now, i have schedule i need to attend he ask me worrily. Dont worry phi, i can, i reply to him. I will excuse myself, thanks for your help i try to leave. Bright, phi mile hold my shoulder. Just rest here today, i will send you home tomorrow. I already prepare all the food for you. It will be waste phi mile said while looking at me. Take your time, dont forget to eat. You just need to warm the food he said and leave me alone in his big house. When phi mile leave i look around and amaze with his big and luxury house. I never see all of this before.

When phi mile back at late night i still at the same place he leave me this morning. Have you eat anything, he ask me worrily. He must be notice that i dont even move an inch. Bright, he call me and i look at him. I really cant concentrate and miss my mom. Lets eat, i am hungry, he said and i look at his worry eyes. Okay, i nod and follow him to his big kicthen. He carefully prepare the food for me. We sit face to face. Thank you, i said and slowly drink the soup. I look at him with amaze eyes. Its so yummy. He now can smile and ask me to drink the soup more. I cant explain how thankful i am toward this famous stranger husband of mine. If you dont mine, you can stay here as long as you want. I stay alone, so no one can disturb you he said. I am grateful phi, but i will go home tomorrow. I am being your burden enough i said and smile. Dont worry, i will start my schedule and will be busy like a crazy person. I wont have time to be sad. But i promise, you can call me anytime for our divorce. I will make time for you, i said. Okay, i will handle it, he said and smile. Bright, you are strong and doing great, your mom will proud of you, he said warmly. Really, i ask him with teary eyes. He smile and nod confidently.

Now, i am all alone not only in my house but also in the world. I dont have strenght to clean and packing my mom house. She clearly and firmly make me promise to donate all his belonging to charity. She said she want to be an angel even after death. But deep down i know she want me to move on and keep on living. I cant explain and describe my feeling right now toward my fans and friends. They keep touching my heart with their support. What make it more special is, phi mile keep checking on me everyday and not win. I know he also sad because he is close to my mom. But since we are in a situation where both of us cant comfort each other. We only can heal our hurt alone.  Its already 3
months after my mom pass away. I finally have a courage and strenght to go to my mom house. I wont let her down. I will not lost her, because she is in my heart. You can do it bright, i said and take my latest burbery sling back and walk out from my house. What are you doing here, phi i ask phi mile who now waiting in front of my gate. You should call me, i said guilty. I dont know how long he was waiting me here. Are we going to the court today, i ask him. He just smile and casually ask. How are you.

06.08.23