Ghetto Harmony

Remember This Feeling

 
                                          Rome

"Oh shit my fault" I say as I rush to close the door after seeing Mel & Bianca naked in my room. I wasn't mad at all that they were fucking in my room because niggas use each others room to fuck in all the time at functions like this. Definitely would've preferred if he asked me if it was cool first though.

I look to my left and see that Fendi is no where to be found, I turn around and see that he's running back down the steps. I don't know why I chased after him but I did.

Damn this lil nigga is fast as fuck, by the time I made it downstairs he was already running out the front door so now I have to speed up a little more... I ignore all the glances from everyone else all around me because they aren't my focus right now.

"Yo Fendi slow down!" I yell out to him once I finally make it outside... of course he didn't listen to me though, he continue to speed walk away from the house.

I run up to him and grab his arm to stop him

When I finally step in front of him I can see that his eyes are filled with tears & his cheeks are wet. "What's wrong?" I ask him even though I already know. I figured out that he had a lil crush on Mel based off of our conversation in the kitchen earlier. 

"Nothing I just wanna go back to my room" he says as he stares at the ground...I'm really a simple person, there's only two things that I don't like. Which is not looking me in the eyes while I'm talking to you and lying. He's currently doing both.

"Look at me when I'm talking to you." I say in a demanding but not threatening tone and he finally looks up at me.

"Thank you" I start.. "and don't lie to me either, nobody runs out of a house crying after they saw two people fucking unless they have feelings for one of those people. Now I know for a fact you don't even like Bianca on a friendly level so imma assume you got some feelings for Mel"

He broke his eye contact when I said that

"What I tell you bout looking at me?" I saw another tear drop from his eye & I grabbed his chin and made him look up at me so I can look him in his eyes.

"Look, I'm not telling you to come out to me or anything like that, i don't care if you bi, straight or gay but it's obvious you got some feelings for my homie. I'm about to tell you this for your own good ight ?" He nods.

"Remember this feeling in your chest, this pain that you're feeling right now. Remember this feeling every time you think about your feelings for Mel because I promise you'll keep feeling this pain the longer you have feelings for him. I've known Mel long enough to know that he's straight okay? You're too good to be lusting over a nigga that's not interested in men because you're just gonna keep hurting yourself. And if by any chance Mel was interested in men, I still don't think you should try and pursue anything with him. That's my nigga and all but I'm not gon act like I don't see how foul he is when it comes to relationships."

I say all of this to him honestly. By my knowledge Rahmel is straight, he's never told me otherwise and I've never seen him with any men. So unless Fendi knows something I don't then I'm confident that I'm right

He doesn't say anything so I take my thumbs and wipe away his tears. I don't know what else to say to him in this moment to make him feel better so I just give him a hug & he hugs me back

"I must care about you because I'm letting your tears stain my shirt & I just bought this shit" I joke to him and I'm happy that I managed to get a laugh out of him. It made me smile.

"You need a ride back to your dorm?" I ask him and he shakes his head no.

"Nah I'm fine imma just walk" and I immediately tell him no.