getaway car - Taylor Swift

"the music industry?"

It all happened so fast. Did ivy imagine herself in a relationship with taylor swift, "the music industry?" Obviously not. But that's what happened. The two started meeting each other multiple times at celebrity-filled parties and award shows.

They went from coworkers, to best friends, and over time, one thing led to another.

Taylor, the woman who until then had declared herself exclusively heterosexual when questioned about her sexuality by the media, who assumed numerous relationships with her friends, was now bisexual.

Initially it was just a joke. Kate would tell ivy that from the way taylor looked at her, they would end up making out in a corner somewhere. "you're completely crazy!" ivy said firmly - "she's only been with men so far, and she's never came out as queer to the media".

"just because she doesn't talk about her sexuality publicly,  that doesn't mean there isn't a possibility that she is".

Ivy always denied that possibility, never in her life could a woman as successful as Taylor like her that way. They were just friends that's all.

"Don't think I haven't noticed," Kate insisted, "Every time you go out at night, by mere " coincidence " she is there. You  are always texting each other , and don't say you don't, because I can see you smiling at your phone, and in my dictionary that means "I'm hopelessly falling in love". You don't even go out with me, Lily and Witt anymore, for god's sake ivy, she keeps asking you to come with her to the studio so she can show you "the new songs she made". She made you want to sing again, you haven't sung in years. You tease each other, if that's not flirting then what is?"

She was right. Maybe the flame I thought was lost since Sam's death last year hadn't died completely. Maybe I could still love someone. But I couldn't love her like that. Sam had died a year ago, it's true, and many in my place would have moved on by now, but I couldn't. I couldn't love her like that. The fact that she died without giving me the answers I needed, the fact that I was left not knowing if our relationship still had a future, was something that still haunted me constantly.

I couldn't give myself to anyone else like that. I swore I would never fall in love again, and I tried my best to convince myself that the feeling was not mutual. At least, that's what I believed. Until one day, this happened:

to be continued