secrets from the lair

Hopeless

you say you love me

god forbid me, but it sounds like a lie

because your actions speak the opposite

you don't care if i cry, because i cry too much and too often

and you think it's tiresome to deal with

i've felt so alone and helpless, endlessly crying behind your back

i felt like the tears would never stop

but they did

because i feel so disconnected from everything and everyone now

and that is a bliss

all the suffering you inflicted on me,

i can now control

because i feel no more

i was so sick of crying

this is honestly so nice