secrets from the lair

Toxic

so much pain for someone so young,

i didn't deserve it and you know it too

now watch my face as i pretend to feel no pain

i want to go back to a time before it was too late

i hate these people

i hate this house

they don't even know how many fucking times i cried because of them

the thing is

my hands are shaking and my tears are falling

and god! i don't want to do this anymore

it's always my fault, isn't it?

can someone please be proud of me?

like fuck, i'm trying!

but i just slowly fade away

and no one even notices

blood doesn't always mean family,

so don't tell me this is home!

(is it all my fault?)