secrets from the lair

i'm not me when i'm with you

felt like it was my fault,

the ridge between us

so i tried to bridge it up,

both of us did

and the process of it made me realize,

why i gave up on talking to you

you just showed me that i wasn't wrong

now i know that i need to continue to lie like i do

because you won't understand what i need

you're here but you're not,

i feel so lonely

and you don't have a clue

you think sticking next to me 24/7 will solve all my problems

but you don't seem to understand the difference between mental and physical presence

i have to lie about being fine every day

i'm actually used to it now

the only difference is that

you pretend to care now

thanks to you i can look someone in the eye,

and lie to their face with no hesitation