secrets from the lair

fragments

i know that something is wrong with me, i've known that for a while

i'm stupid, rude, arrogant and bitchy

and no matter how hard i try, i won't ever be good enough

but shouldn't you try to understand too?

i'm only a child after all

but you cannot let me find solace,

why do you love seeing me miserable?

what did i ever do to you that was so wrong?

i'm trying to get my shit together,

to pretend as if everything is fine when it's not

and when that takes its toll,

i ask myself what is it that i'm trying to stay put together for?

i want to crumble down, shatter and fall apart into a million pieces

and never have anyone, or even me try to piece me together again

but i know that i'll get up again, because i always do

and try to repair the fragments of my broken self as best as possible