I Love Him, But I'm Off Limits (All Time Low fan fic <3)

I Love Him, But I'm Off Limits (All Time Low fan fic <3) chapter 3

ok so im sorry its taken me so long to update, my computer broke :/ but this chapter is really long! i hope you guys like it :) pleeeaaaasssse dont forget to vote, fan, or comment :) i really would appreciate it :)

Chapter 3

I woke up crying, with some tears running down my face. I knew I had been dreaming of Patrick again. I always woke up crying when id been dreaming of him. I sat up, pulled my knees to my chest and began thinking again. I thought of Patrick and all the great times we shared. The beach, the mall, the movies, band practices for my brother. Everything. I also thought of the bad. The fights, the heartache, the misunderstandings, the crying. Then I thought back to the good. The comfort when I was upset, the sweetness he had about him, the laying in silence under the stars. Perfection. All of it was. I was still completely in love with him. Ugh why'd he have to go ruin it by sleeping with some hoebag? Just cause I wouldn't sleep with him. Ridiculous. The guys had told me time and time again that if he cheated simply for that reason, then that's most likely all he ever wanted. If that was true, then why did he stay with me for so long?

I was pulled out of my thoughts when Rian slowly opened the curtain to my bunk. Apparently I'd been crying a little too loudly.

"Hey, you ok?" He asked

"I'm fine" I lied.

"If your fine, then why are you crying?"

I sighed and said,"why do you think?" Rian had always been there for me. He was like my second big brother. Except he was nicer to me than my own brother.

"Patrick?"

"Yeahh... I guess I had another dream about him" I was still crying at this point.

"Move over" he said quietly. We were trying not to wake everyone.

I moved over and he crawled in next to me and pulled me into a hug and let me cry on his shoulder. He was amazing that way.

"It's gonna be ok, ya know? Eventually he won't mean anything to you. He'll just be another guy."

"I know. But when? I hate this. Waking up crying over someone so stupid and ignorant. I hate it."

"I know you do. Just give it time. It'll eventually go away."

"What if it doesn't? I don't know if I can take this anymore. You know how badly he messed me up. He shattered everything inside of me."

'It will. And i know this, because I've been here before. Just give it time. And most importantly, allow yourself to forgive him. He may not deserve it, but I garentee it'll make you feel better, ok?"

I sighed again." I hate it when your right."

"Everyone does." He smiled."now try to get some sleep" he began to climb out of my bunk, but I stopped him.

"Hey Rian?"

"Yeah?"

"If all he wanted was to get in my pants, why'd he stay with me for so long? He knew I wasn't gonna do anything."

"Cause he's a guy. He's a pig. And he was probably hoping you'd change your mind."

"But he waited for 2 years to cheat."

"Maybe he didn't. I know that hurts worse. But maybe he was cheating before you found out."

I sighed."I hate this."

"I know, now go back to sleep, ok?"

"I'll try. Thanks Rian. For everything."

"No problem Skye, goodnight, love you!"