I Love Him, But I'm Off Limits (All Time Low fan fic <3)

chapter 7

I am soooo sorry i didnt update when i said i would! I got home from vacation on the 15th but i literally havent had anytime to myself since then, appearntly my friends missed me a lot lol. I SHOULD be able to update more often now, though its not garenteed!! I have to have surgery before school starts so while thats gonna suck monkey balls, im hoping itll give me some time to write once im ya know functioning again lol. I also have a summer reading project due the first week of school that im on like page 2 on soooo that must be sone as well... buuut i think writing comes first ;) sooooo anyways enough of my rambling, here's chapter 7!! :D

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"What the hell is going on in here?" Alex yelled after opening the curtain to my bunk. Jack and I must have switched positions in our sleep; we were now both on our sides with Jacks arm around me, our fingers still laced together. My eyes jolted open at the noise and i jumped up, waking Jack.

"Nothings going on Alex!" I said trying to come up with an excuse to use; I couldnt tell him about last night, he'd be too upset.

"The why the hell are you two sleeping together?" He asked. He was angry, but then again when wasn't he these days?

I caved, "I was really upset last night, and asked if he would stay with me, that's all Alex, I swear!" I pleaded. There was no way he'd believe that,

"That's bullshit!" He screamed back at me as i sat there in disbleief. Sure i knew he wouldnt believe it, but he really didn't have to scream,

"Dude calm the fuck down! That's all that happened! She was upset, i wasn't just gonna tell her no when she was bawling her eyes out!" Jack said. That was the just of what happened, yes, but there was more that Alex didnt need to know yet.

"She actually was really upset dude, I saw her," Rian said cutting in. Thank God he had seen me. We'd be dead if he hadn't.

"Why were you upsest?" He said concerned but still angry. He really didnt like the fact that Jack and me had slept in my bed together.

"It's nothing." I said softly, I really didn't want to discuss it right now.

"It's obviously not if you asked Jack to stay with you, now what's wrong?" He said now more anger in his voice than concern.

"I don't wanna talk about it okay!" I screamed. "am i not allowed privacy anymore?" I said a bit softer, but stil harsh,

"Well considering your past, no your not!" Alex said venom in his voice and all. I could tell without even looking at them that Jack and Ri were suprised at that comment. He shouldn't have said that, he knew it pissed me off even more and in a different way. It almost hurt me.

"That's not fair and you know it. I was screwed up then, I'm not anymore! Will you ever drop it?" I screamed. I seriously couldn't believe he had said that just to make me mad. Who does that? And since when does Alex do that? He never has before.

"Really now? Then why did i see this in the trash can a few minutes ago?" He said almost hurt while holding up my razor blade. "Can you answer me that?" I could tell he was hurt and pissed. I started sobbing and hyperventalating to a point where i almost couldn't breathe. Why did he have to find it? Why did Jack just throw it where anyone could find it? I didn't want anyone to know that I almost relapsed last night. I felt an arm go around my shoulders trying to calm me down, I guessed it was Jack's.

"Skye breathe, ok? Please? I'm sorry, I didn't mean to upset you. I'm just worried. Just tell me what happened." Alex said, his voice softer now. It had been a long time since i was this upset, and Alex knew he had brought it on. I knew he was worried, but he didn't have to be so forceful about it.