I Love Him, But I'm Off Limits (All Time Low fan fic <3)

chapter 17

I am sooooo sorry again guys! school is kicking my butt this year :/ i barley have time to write! but i have a class now that i can write in cause its a total blow off class! sooo i should hopefully be able to write and post more often! thats the goal anyways! thank you guys sooo so so so much for sticking with this story even though i havet been able to post as often as i would like to, it means sooo much to me! and thank you to those of you who vote and comment. it makes my day everytime i see that someone commented or voted on this.

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"Um...uh." I was absolutely shocked! He just told me he loves me! Jack just told me he loves me! And I have no clue what to say! Do I love him? Do I not love him? I think I love him, but I honestly haven't thought about it much.

Am I even ready to fall in love again?

"Look, you don't have to say anything back. I know you may not be ready to fall in love again just yet with everything that happened with Patrick, but I had to tell you how I really feel. I-I needed to get it off my chest." Jack said squeezing my hand that he still held between his two gently. I couldn't believe this! This absolutely perfect guy is actually telling me that he loves me!

"Um...I-uh." I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. I had to say something other than 'uh' but my brain obviously didn't remember how to do that. I looked at my empty food tray as if it would give me the answer I was looking for, and when it didn't I started looking around the room. I hadn't really been paying attention but this place wasn't like your normal hospital cafeteria; the walls weren't white, but instead a light blue color, and there were a few paintings hanging up. It was actually sort of pretty.

My heart was racing as I tried to think of something to say. Anything would be better than my first attempts. I took another deep breath, looking away from the painting on the wall and turned my attention back to Jack who probably thought that I was insane by now. Then, I made another attempt to say something that didn't make me sound incompetent.

"It's not that I don't love you. I'm just not sure that I'm in love with you. I'm not sure if I'm ready to be. I mean I know you'd never intentionally hurt me. Believe me I know that you wouldn't. And I know I can trust you with anything. But I-I jus-don't know if I'm ready to give my heart to someone again. I haven't even thought about it to be honest. I just- I need time to think." I said quickly stumbling over my words. Love wasn't something that people generally had to think about, it just happened most of the time, but with all the crap that's happened in the past few months, a little thinking was probably necessary. "I'm sorry." I said with a sad smile, hoping that Jack wouldn't be too disappointed. That's the last thing I wanted to happen.

"Skye, calm down okay? Take your time, I'm not going anywhere. Not for awhile." Jack smiled. How could he smile when I wasn't telling him that I love him too? I wanted to, more than anything, but for some reason, I couldn't. I needed to think things through first.

"You promise?" I asked. I needed to know that he really wasn't going to leave me anytime soon. I needed him. He was the only thing besides my brother that was keeping me sane right now. Without him, I would definitely not have been able to do half of the things I've had to do in the last few months.

"Cross my heart and hope to die." he smiled again. "I think I need you more than you realize." he said using my previous words to him. The fact that he remembered what I said made me smile. "We should get back before they really do think that I kidnapped you." Jack laughed. I laughed a bit too. Knowing them they probably would think that I had been kidnapped. Especially Alex, he tends to overreact a bit.