- Truly, I can't hate you
(Song by me)
My heart yearns for your love
I just want to cuddle up against you
Moments of sweetness I can't have enough
But I won't forget pain you put me through
Mama, why are your eyes filled with rage?
What is it that you hate so much about me?
Your shift of personality is so strange
Why can't we just live in a happy reality?
I only have you once in my life
No matter what, I will always love you
Even though I've looked at the knife
But I adore you, even with your world view
You never hated me while pregnant
Please, I depend on you, show me pride
We can still fix this in the present
Please show me more of your loving side
Sometimes I just talk to you
To alter my perception of your love
What is it that lowered my value?
What else is it that I'm unworthy of?
Please stay with me, you're my mother
Yes your anger is way too bad
But you always made sure I slept covered
I can't resent you, you're all I have
You took care of me when I got sick
Prayed that I should get better
When I got hurt, you took care of it quick
I even wrote you thank you letters
But there were also moments of cruelty
You said you regretted my birth
You always liked to beat me
And you said I'm the most pathetic on earth
I only have you once in my life
No matter what, I will always love you
Even though I've looked at the knife
But I adore you, even with your world view
You never hated me while pregnant
Please, I depend on you, show me pride
We can still fix this in the present
Please show me more of your loving side
Sometimes I just talk to you
To alter my perception of your love
What is it that lowered my value?
What else is it that I'm unworthy of?
Please stay with me, you're my mother
Yes your anger is way too bad
But you always made sure I slept covered
I can't resent you, you're all I have
I can't leave you, no matter what
I can't hate you, even if I pretend I do
Even if I have aggressive thoughts
I don't want to get "rescued"
The moments of love are impossible to fake
But then why are you also so hurtful?
No matter what, you made my heart break
I won't stop hugging you, even if they pull
I only have you once in my life
No matter what, I will always love you
Even though I've looked at the knife
But I adore you, even with your world view
You never hated me while pregnant
Please, I depend on you, show me pride
We can still fix this in the present
Please show me more of your loving side
Sometimes I just talk to you
To alter my perception of your love
What is it that lowered my value?
What else is it that I'm unworthy of?
Please stay with me, you're my mother
Yes your anger is way too bad
But you always made sure I slept covered
I can't resent you, you're all I have
[Written in: 15/01/2023]
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Poetry♦️♦️♦️ A collection of my songs and poems. From 2023 and onwards. They are free to interpret. I removed my other collection with my earlier works. They just no longer reflect me as a person and as an artist. Disclaimer: Some of them tell fictional s...
