CW//could be disturbing to some
Disclaimer: The story told here is fictional.
But my feelings are not.
- Am I even a woman?
(Poem by me)
Am I even a woman?
Am I even a woman?
Am I even a woman?
Am I even a woman?
You tell me to spread my legs
You say I should taste your tongue
You expect that because I am young
You want me to follow these celebs
I do not want any of these things
"Then why are we even together?"
I am not a true lesbian, if I cannot please her
But I do not want what is happening!
Am I even a woman?
Am I even a woman?
Am I even a woman?
Am I even a woman?
As a housewife, I must do what she wants
Critique grows over my wishes
Saying, it should not be my decision
So dearly, I must follow all commands
Our relationship defies norms
Yet still, you follow het guidelines
So angry, when I decline
My traditions create your storm
Am I even a woman?
Am I even a woman?
Am I even a woman?
Am I even a woman?
I feel guilt for my lack of interest
I do not want to deprive her needs
Still, that nightmare, I achieved
So is that why she seems so stressed?
Take one look at the community
So sexualised, you are all the same
I cannot follow, so I must feel shame
Because all I want is a woman to cuddle me
Am I even a woman?
Am I even a woman?
Am I even a woman?
Am I even a woman?
A true woman feels those feelings every day
Yet I cannot please her commands
Yet I do not do what society wants
Yet I cannot love her that way
"You are 19 and still a virgin?
You have not kissed as well?
Guys, look at this loser incel!
Let me hurt you, it is your true purpose"
Am I even a woman?
Am I even a woman?
Am I even a woman?
Am I even a woman?
In media, I am not represented
I feel less human
Is it really that uncommon?
Is this why I am so hated?
You say, we are sexual beings after all
Then I guess, I am of different species
My hope in love decreases
Into an endless pit of darkness, I fall
Am I even a woman?
Am I even a woman?
Am I even a woman?
Am I even a woman?
I want to love the perfect woman
But the one in the mirror is so hateful
Her words must be truthful
If they were not, why do I have this organ?
The world is hyper sexual
I am useless to the relationship
Not worthy of a companionship
Because you see "it" as essential
Am I even a woman?
Am I even a woman?
Am I even a woman?
Am I even a woman?
I dearly want to love her that way
But I simply cannot
They gossip, once I am out of earshot
Because their strange games, I do not play
I hide behind this happy tune
Still my words are filled with misery
Without sex, no one will love me
Without sex, there is no need for honeymoon
Am I even a woman?
Am I even a human?
Am I even a woman?
Am I even a human?
[Written in: 29/08/2023]
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