CW//ED, mention of Suicide, do not read if you are sensitive towards these subjects
Disclaimer: The story told here is fictional.
- I will choke
(Song by me)
I will choke
This body is not mine
I will not fall into this lie
Watching people of the opposite gender
I feel envious, I wish I would not remember
Why do I not look like them?
At least I must attempt
To change this body
Soon my mind starts to become foggy
Food filling my breathing pipe
I do not want to choke
Only liquids will be safe
Otherwise, I will hyperventilate
From all the bleeding I identify my blood type
From all the crying, my clothes are soaked
In the mirror I see my wrong face
The one I feel I must eliminate
I WILL CHOKE
I WILL CHOKE
I WILL CHOKE
I WILL CHOKE
Shattering mirrors, my fist is bleeding
Does that mean I am succeeding?
Still my rage is tainting my heart
They say I should stop, but this is art
Nothing, I feel nothing anymore
I must complete what I swore
When I smile, it does not hurt as much
To ignore life, all my pictures are retouched
Food filling my breathing pipe
I do not want to choke
Only liquids will be safe
Otherwise, I will hyperventilate
From all the bleeding I identify my blood type
From all the crying, my clothes are soaked
In the mirror I see my wrong face
The one I feel I must eliminate
I WILL CHOKE
Crying alone in the school's toilets
While others are forming friendships
Emptying out my stomach's contents
It is not liquid, I will choke, this is my descent
No, no one thinks I am beautiful
This is not my body, it is just pitiful
Sometimes I consider true escape
I do not recognise this body shape
Food filling my breathing pipe
I do not want to choke
Only liquids will be safe
Otherwise, I will hyperventilate
From all the bleeding I identify my blood type
From all the crying, my clothes are soaked
In the mirror I see my wrong face
The one I feel I must eliminate
I WILL CHOKE
I WILL CHOKE
I WILL CHOKE
I WILL CHOKE
I WILL CHOKE
CHOKE
STOP FOLLOWING ME AROUND
I DO NOT WANT TO HEAR YOUR SOUND
I CANNOT EAT, I WILL CHOKE
I WILL CHOKE
I WILL CHOKE
I WILL CHOKE
I WILL CHOKE
I WILL CHOKE
I WILL CHOKE
I WILL CHOKE
I WILL CHOKE
I WILL CHOKE
I WILL CHOKE
CHOKE
CHOKE
CHOKE
CHOKE
CHOKE
Disconnected from your body?
Disconnected from your people?
Disconnected from your family?
Disconnected from your community? :(
Bones are all I see
That is not me, that cannot be
My life is no success story,
Suicide will be my glory
Every day I am scared
This broken body must be repaired
Food will only kill me, it is dangerous
I only consume liquids that are flavourless
I WILL CHOKE
I WILL CHOKE
I WILL CHOKE
I WILL CHOKE
I WILL CHOKE
CHOKE
STOP FOLLOWING ME AROUND
I DO NOT WANT TO HEAR YOUR SOUND
I CANNOT EAT, I WILL CHOKE
I WILL CHOKE
I WILL CHOKE
I WILL CHOKE
I WILL CHOKE
I WILL CHOKE
I WILL CHOKE
I WILL CHOKE
I WILL CHOKE
I WILL CHOKE
I WILL CHOKE
CHOKE
CHOKE
CHOKE
CHOKE
CHOKE
I will choke
[Written in: 11/07/2023]
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Poetry♦️♦️♦️ A collection of my songs and poems. From 2023 and onwards. They are free to interpret. I removed my other collection with my earlier works. They just no longer reflect me as a person and as an artist. Disclaimer: Some of them tell fictional s...
