🃏 Adulthood 🃏

♦️ Sunflower ♦️

- Sunflower
(Song by me)

Standing in a field
Full of sunflowers
Finally I have healed
In therapy I have spent hours
We have decided to grow one as well
I look down and smile
My clothes are pastel
Finally, my life is no longer hostile

Children are our future
So we decide to contribute to it
Discussed it with her
Decided I would carry, I wear my pink outfit
Her kisses are more gentle
Now that I am carrying
The world may be judgmental
Did not stop us from marrying

Her face, covered by the sun
Her hands, around my tummy
My new life has begun
With her, I feel so lucky

I feel her love in every bone of my body
Tracking their growth intensely
Never thought I would be happy
Even though my parents disagree

I watch for her to come home from work
Showing her the pictures
She carries them in her purse
Around her my heart beats quicker

Standing in a field
Full of sunflowers
Finally I have healed
In therapy I have spent hours
We have decided to grow one as well
I look down and smile
My clothes are pastel
Finally, my life is no longer hostile

Children are our future
So we decide to contribute to it
Discussed it with her
Decided I would carry, I wear my pink outfit
Her kisses are more gentle
Now that I am carrying
The world may be judgmental
Did not stop us from marrying

Whatever I crave, she buys
Not afraid to make a fool out of herself
Together we watch the sunrise
And she always watches out for my health

I laugh and tell her to loosen up
But she is just so excited for parenthood
So worried, she will not even let me jump
Together, our life as a family will be so good

Months progress, I can no longer work
Every day she comes and gives me a kiss
At her corniness I cannot help but smirk
Still I cherish all of this

Standing in a field
Full of sunflowers
Finally I have healed
In therapy I have spent hours
We have decided to grow one as well
I look down and smile
My clothes are pastel
Finally, my life is no longer hostile

Children are our future
So we decide to contribute to it
Discussed it with her
Decided I would carry, I wear my pink outfit
Her kisses are more gentle
Now that I am carrying
The world may be judgmental
Did not stop us from marrying

I feel so much love, it does not even hurt
On the day of delivery
In the hospital still in my nightshirt
How she has not fainted yet is a mystery

Holding our love in my arms
She cries tears of joy
I just adore her charm
The way she holds them, I watch and enjoy

Our sunflower has bloomed
She wants even more
Standing under the full moon
I do not regret what I swore

Standing in a field
Full of sunflowers
Finally I have healed
In therapy I have spent hours
We have decided to grow one as well
I look down and smile
My clothes are pastel
Finally, my life is no longer hostile

Children are our future
So we decide to contribute to it
Discussed it with her
Decided I would carry, I wear my pink outfit
Her kisses are more gentle
Now that I am carrying
The world may be judgmental
Did not stop us from marrying

I just wish this would be my reality
Instead, I can only dream and cry
I know no one would want me
And even if, I am way too shy

I am too young to settle down yet
People my age are still immature
Especially since I am not het
How much more pain will I endure?

I just keep on waiting for that day to come
But what if I die before that?
That would be a pathetic outcome
And I know it will happen for a fact

[Written in: 08/08/2023]