CW//might be disturbing
Disclaimer: The story told here is fictional.
- Whom my heart desires
(Song by me)
Sitting next to my future husband
In a dark room with dark thoughts
Surrounded by strangers and cousins
I am unresponsive like a robot
Henna on my hands
Tears running down my face
I am doing what my parents planned
I feel nothing in his embrace
They carry out their traditions
I am a woman of age, I must be married off
I have learnt to lie like a politician
From my sobbing I start to cough
Why do I not love my future husband?
I feel nothing when he looks at me
My heart is only troubled
Why did he drink his cup of coffee?
The ceremonies only make me sad
Why is that? What does my heart desire?
Why does my soul feel damned?
If not him, who would I admire?
I excuse myself to go to the toilets
I need time away from this moment
He is so ugly and flamboyant
I only do this for my parents' enjoyment
A woman walks in, I look into her eyes
So beautiful, I finally feel something
I am lost for words as she smiles
I smile back shyly as my heart is jumping
This is why I do not love my future husband
I feel love when she looks at me
My heart is only troubled
Why was it not her who drunk the coffee?
The ceremonies only make me sad
Now I know, she is what my heart desires
Still why does my soul feel damned?
Simply because of whom I admire
Time passes and still she occupies my mind
Today is the day of my wedding
I was not granted the freedom to decline
As I am put in my dress, I am sweating
Sitting at the table with him
I stare into the crowd to find her
Of their ignorance I am victim
I spot her, she is the beloved I would prefer
I despise my future husband
I feel longing as she looks at me
My heart is only troubled
Why did I not poison his coffee?
The final ceremony only makes me sad
She is whom my heart truly desires
Without her my soul feels damned
I want to be with the woman I admire
In my grief I take out a weapon
Destroying the heart that desires you
I could not let this marriage happen
This is my only rescue
Laying bleeding on the ground
I smile, we will be united one day
Only of your voice I hear the sound
Without your love, I would rather pass away
[Written in: 27/06/2023]
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