"But what if my brother finds out about us?" I manage to whisper out my mouth followed by very faint moans.
"Jesse won't find out, it will be like our little secret." Ellie replied firmly in my ear and carried on making wet kisses on my neck.
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It was the day of the party my brother was holding later that evening and I still wasn't too sure if I was gonna end up going or not, as much as I want to make Ellie jealous I just don't know if I'm in the headspace to be at an event like that right now.
After what happened with Ethan a few weeks ago I don't feel that safe anymore, which sucks because I really do want to go and enjoy I've spent my whole teenage years distancing myself from everyone.
Even when I was younger, I mean yeah I've never really been in a relationship before but many boys have tried getting close to me, but I just don't see them in that way, and I've never really felt a 'spark' with anyone before, except for well, Ellie.
No no. I'm over her, I don't have feelings for her so there is no need to be thinking about her like that, I had better plans. Dina was coming over a little bit earlier than when the party started so she could get dressed at my place and help out Jesse with setting up. It wasn't the first time Jesse had run a party whilst our parents were away, he was almost known for throwing the best parties in Jackson.
When they would be on I'd normally stay in my room to make sure no one came upstairs, where they weren't supposed to.
Dina said that I can get ready with her and in the end if I decide to not go downstairs with her later to join everyone else then it's fine and she understands where I'm coming from, but I just feel like I'm letting her down. Like, she's always trying to make me feel better and she is always putting me first, it's the littlest I could do by going to a silly party. I'll just have to think about it more I guess.
I had been in my bedroom all day, I didn't want to leave just in case I saw her, by her i mean Ellie. but as Dina said she probably used me like most girls she hooks up with. However, since that day Ellie has had less and less girls over, sure she hasn't stopped bringing girls home all together. God forbid that. Is she back with Cat now or something? Ugh, why do I feel so jealous of her. Me and Ellie were never in a relationship and we never will be. Hell, we only kissed once, nothing else has happened since then so what's the big deal?
"Izzy!!" I heard being belted from the bottom of the stairs, it was Dina.
"Up here!" I yell back.
It was normal for Dina just to walk in our house un announced, my parents loved her and she always ended helping them out with the dishes or something after we had all been done with our food. So she's basically 'apart of the furniture' as my dad would say.
Dina bursts in my room with three cute dresses in both hands I'm guessing she wants me too pick one.
The first dress that caught my eye was this red one wich seemed to be quite short and it was slightly laced at the top, definitely not something I saw Dina wearing but I may have to steal it from her at some point in time. I wonder where she got it from it looked to be in good condition too.
