"But what if my brother finds out about us?" I manage to whisper out my mouth followed by very faint moans.
"Jesse won't find out, it will be like our little secret." Ellie replied firmly in my ear and carried on making wet kisses on my neck.
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Me and Ellie haven't spoken since the day I saw Cat, which was around two months ago now. I know. I'm proud I didn't snap by then too. But as i said, im done with Ellie.
A lot has happened the week I had my little conversation with Cat and Ellie somehow, Ellie had managed to convince Jesse to take a break from patrols. Why? I don't fucking know but now I've been doing it with some creepy old guy that comments on everything I wear, positively or negatively.
As much as I hate to admit it, I miss Ellie. Not like that, just as work partners I mean. She might have treated me like shit but at the same time I felt safe...well she's super strong and so- shit no, stop were over her Izzy.
And anyways, I've always felt safe around her, especially when we were younger. One time Jesse wasn't to be seen in the house so my mum told me to go out and look for him. I had been searching for an hour with no luck. Then, I saw Ellie sitting with a group of people, i assumed she'd know where he was, because they were close, so I walked over to them and asked Ellie if she had seen my brother.
"No, now fuck off." She said and looked back at the girl she was just talking too and everyone laughs but she seemed annoyed at my presence. But we would always bicker like this.
"Oh...okay, sorry Ellie." I just smiled, trying to show I wasn't the littlest hurt by her harsh words.
At the time I didn't realise why I cared so much if she liked me or not but now I do.
Then as I'm about to turn around I got tripped up by one of the boys in the group and Ellie stands up hovering over him.
"Don't fucking touch her, man." She had him by the collar and everything, it was insane.
After that she offered to walk me home because my face was all messed up from the fall and she wanted to make sure I got home safe I guess.
Whilst we were on our way back I asked her why she stuck up for me and she just told me that "only I can pick on you, iz." Not even now I understand what she meant by that.
I miss when we were fine again, but now everything has changed. Maybe it's for the best.
Ellie has asked to stay in our house for a little longer because she's not ready to leave just yet. Of course my parents and brother were over blown with joy by the idea but this just means it's still gonna be hard to ignore her when we live under the same roof.
And Tonight was A "family dinner." But would you call it that if Ellie is there?
Fuck, even though Ellie told me she's over what happened between us that night at jesses party, I am not.
Ellie was so good with her fingers and knew exactly what to do, clearly experienced.
She's the only one that's seen me in that state. And I will admit I've tried to do things myself since then but it's just not the same. Maybe I need to get out there more.
