Does It Ever Get Better? (On Hold. Again. I'm Sorry)

"Losing A Friend Or Two." - Chapter 16 (part 1)

Evan's p.o.v.

I'm in school right now. I'm extremely tired because yet again, I got no sleep what-so-ever, but I'm not wetting the bed anymore. I haven't all weekend. Which means no more stupid diapers as if I'm three-year-old and my brothers never found out so they never got the chance to tease me. Currently, I'm in English and Ross won't stop poking me with his pencil. I turned around to face him and growled, "Ross, if you don't stop poking me with your Goddamn pencil, I'm going to shove it so far up your ass!"

His response was a smirk. I should have remembered that he feeds off of fear and/or anger. "Well, I don't really think you're in any position to do and/or say that."

"Just leave me alone!" I turned around to face the board. I look over to see Hope and Faith laughing with one of the popular girls. I sighed knowing I will never be able to join in with their conversation. I honestly don't think I'd want to anyway. They probably just talk about makeup and boys. On Friday when Rydel took me out, I kind of wish I brought Gavin instead. I think he would have had more fun, but it was a girls day and I feel like I haven't hung out with Hope and Faith one on one in a while. They're always so busy and rarely have time for me. I get it. I do. I just don't want to lose the only other friends I have.

As the bell rang, dismissing class, it was now lunch. I was quick to leave the room before Ross had time to say and/or do anything. I sat down in the corner seat of the cafeteria where I usually sit with a notebook in hand to doodle, or write. I don't have lunch with Gavin, but I do have lunch with Hope and Faith. I saw them walk in with the other popular girls. I know they're popular and I'm not going to act like they're all that and stuff, but I don't know. I know there's something up with them. They have never been this popular before. They rarley ever talked to Madison and her friends. I did a quick wave of the hand to show them I'm over here. Hope didn't notice, but Faith did, she gave me a glare along with a disgusted look on her face. They both sat down at Madison's table. This is gonna be a bad idea, but I walked over to their table with my head low. I got to the end of the table and I could feel all their eyes land on me. "Oh, look. It's an emo lesbian. Watch out girls, if she touches you, you could get a disease." Madison commented. Madison was the queen bee. She had wavy, bleach blonde hair with sharp brown eyes, but I'd say they were black. There was no kindness in them what-so-ever. She was probably 5'6, give or take, and definitely weighted about nintey pounds.

"What do you want?" Rosie snapped.  Rosie was about 5'5 and had to have weighed no more than a hundred pounds. Her hair was dark brown, almost black and always wavy. Her eyes were a cruel and sharp brown.

I let out a soft, monotone laugh before answering, "You guys-" I said as I pointed to both Hope and Faith. "-Were supposed to sit with me." I could hear my voice quivering.

"Eww! You two know this thing?" Vanessa asked. Vanessa had a wanna be dye job, trying her hardest to copy Madison, including makeup. She was also about 5'5 and clearly weighted no more than a hundred pounds. Her eyes were green. They seemed gentle, but could change in a flash. In response, Hope shook her head and looked down.

"Why would we want to be with you, let alone sit with a fag like you?!" Faith said. Tears slowly started to form in my eyes. I hated being this emotional. Never used to be, don't know what changed, but I was now annoyed with myself. I think it was just the thought of losing friends. I've never really had any friends and now that I do. They're leaving. Figures.

"Here's an idea; go do what you do best and pleasure boys for money." Lizzy said with a smile and everyone in the surrounding area laughed. Lizzy, in my opinion, was a thousand times prettier than Madison. I don't know why Lizzy wasn't the queen bee. She had the perfect body. She had such beauty that radiated off of her face, but she was just as cruel as the rest of them. With sharp blue eyes and a cursed smile that was in fact contagious. She was also about 5'6. These girls wore high end clothes, top makeup brands, and always set trends. Lizzy, seemed to be more natural and I think that's what makes her prettier than Madison.