Does It Ever Get Better? (On Hold. Again. I'm Sorry)

"More Than Just A Broken Heart." - Chapter 38

Evans p.o.v.

So, Lily and I have been hanging out a lot. I feel as if I can talk to someone for once, other than Gavin, you know? She has had times when she's a cold-hearted bitch and as if she never gave a fuck about me, but then she blames it on her personality disorder, or because she's bipolar, but other than that, She's very caring, maybe too caring. I'd normally never eat- I hate food so fucking much, but with Lily, she makes sure I eat. Normally, she'd always say, "I need you healthy and alive.", or "You're eating, you're not going to die." I mean, yes, she's only helping, but come on! Don't force me. Also, she's way, way too protective. If we're walking and someone accidentally walks into me she'll go all ape shit on them, now that- that pisses me off. I can handle myself. God knows I've been doing it for thirteen years. My whole fucking life. Not to mention, she took all my blades! What? Why? How am I supposed to... I don't know! Yes, again I get she's trying to help me, but ...my blades. Also, she didn't just take my razor blades. No, no, she took my special pocket knife, Greg had made just for me on my tenth birthday. I don't cut to solve my problems, that's not why I do it. I like my scars, I like the blood dripping onto the cold floor. My scars are my art. They're my one perfection. Everything else about me is just- It's all just- I'm just one big fucking flaw. I look at my scars and it reminds me that the past is real. Guess I'm more emo than I thought.

*Knock, Knock*

I got up and walked to my door, managing to fall on the way there. I opened the door after I stood to see a rainbow-fringed girl. "Hi..." I sighed.

She tilted her head to one side. "You okay?" I nodded and sat back on my bed. She sat next to me and pulled me into a hug. "You know I love you, right?" I nodded and held a confused expression on my face. Lily kissed my cheek before she broke the hug. "Did you eat this morning?" She asked.

I looked down and then at her. "Yes." I answered.

"Really?" She raised an eyebrow.

"Yes! Yes, I did!" I snapped. Truth is, I didn't.

"Calm down. I was just asking." Lily said. I'm usually calm near her so I don't know where my attitude is coming from. I'm just getting a bad vibe. Weird. "Look, I'm sorry to just come here then leave, but I gotta go." Lily said as she stood up. I bit my lip. That's just simply a bad habit of mine. "Look, Aiden needs my help and he's alone." Lily told me.

I sighed and nodded. "Yeah, okay." I spoke and forced a smile at her. She placed hands in sweatshirt pocket and then pulled one hand out to reveal a black velvet box with a purple ribbon. She placed it in my hand. "I love you." She pecked my lips and left. I was a bit shocked at how fast she just kind of left. I placed my hand on the top and pulled it back, opening it. It was a silver chain, kinda like a dog chain, but nicer. It was a choker with a rose, then two pentagrams on either side of the rose, and on either side of those there was a G clef on the left side and a bass clef on the right. A smile crept on my lips. I took it from the box and put it around my neck. I looked in the mirror sat on my wall and smiled at the necklace. I then cringed a bit at my face. Wait- Aiden's not alone. Todd and Aiden are together.

Lily's p.o.v.

My phone rang just as I left Evan's house. Couldn't have had better timing. "Hey, Babe." I smiled into the phone.

"Hey, where are you? We were supposed to meet up at the park." The voice said.

"I know, Baby. I'm on my way." I said and I hung up. I ran to the park and once I was there looked around for her. Then a pair of arms wrapped around my small waist from behind. I squeaked and I felt her chest rumble as she chuckled. "Put me down, Kylana." I giggled.