She sunk down on the desk, holding it for support, he seemed dazed and she tried hard but her facade was fading, he looked at her, feeling another pang of guilt, he hated this feeling and now it crept all over him, again, two of the most important people in his life, he'd let them both down! He felt like he didn't deserve her love anymore " I don't deserve you" he whispered stepping back..
She looked up shocked by his statement! No one deserved her if it wasn't for him and besides there was no deserve in love, there was just love, she stepped forward extending her hand, he walked back some more " no I don't, I'll ruin you, and your life, look at me, it's best if I'm not a part of your life, I'm of no use" she felt anger and fear jolt through her veins, what was this now? He wanted to leave her? She ran to him holding his collar..
" no one gave you the right to decide what I deserve, and wow randhir Singh Shekhawat is running away, when it got harder, really when I see you today I don't see the man I fell in love with " she hoped he would react.. He smiled sadly" but you're still the girl I fell in love with, and that will never change, maybe I don't deserve your love, but my love for you is forever "
She could sense his guilt, and the precise reason her mom also didn't want him to know, he would feel he's obliged to look after her, he would feel he had to support her even if he didn't want to because he had a good heart" my mom told me being in love and staying in love and fighting for it were two different things, she said the latter was what counted, i guess you're the first type, I guess I fell in love with the wrong person "
That really hurt him, as if it were possible to break down more, as if his heart hadn't cracked into pieces enough, he held his palm to his chest tying to physically subdue the pain, it just would stop, he had loved her with every cell in his anatomy, he felt what she said right now was unfair, he never gave up on their love, be it the goons attacking her, the terrorist holding a gun to her head, her family confrontation when he said " now it's you're turn", when FITE was about to shut, when she had no place to go and he helped her find a place to stay, with the coaching class incident, he had been her rock.
He hadn't asked for anything in return, it was just love, he never mentioned all of this, it was never an obligation, never a favour, it was for his sanyukta, so when she said he didn't know how to fight for his love, it felt unfair, taking long steps towards her, he clasped her neck and cheek in his wide palms, his thumb pressing into her skin, wiping her tears " how can you say that?" he murmured close to her face, with his other hand he grabbed her wrist and placed it on his chest where it hurt " you hear that? Do you feel it? It beats for you so listen close.. This melody is meant for you"
Her hands scrunched his shirt, she knew what she said was to hurt him, but he would leave if she hadn't, she knew what she had to do to make him react, even if it meant to hurt some more for eternal bliss, it hurt her more to hurt him this way, she knew to what lengths he'd go for her, the words of her mom didn't make her love falter, not even by an inch..
"My heart's a stereo
It beats for you, so listen close
Hear my thoughts in every no-o-o-te
Make me your radio
And turn me up when you feel low
This melody was meant for you
Just sing along to my stereo"
