World behind my wall

im sorry

TW/SH

BILLS POV:

Once we had arrived me and Tom stuck together until Tom found some girl and they obviously had to go into the room to fuck, now leaving me here all alone, I wasn't really in the mood for drinking I never even wanted to come here in the first place, but I came for tom and now he isn't even here I should've just waited in the car, I walk over to a corner of this crowded room where then girls and guys start approaching me, some asking me to dance with them, some offering a drink, some asking for sex, and some deciding to try to fuck me then and there, that was my last straw I didn't want to bother Tom though so I just walked over to the backyard where I knew no one would be.

There I see a brown hair girl and ginger from afar , the girl reminded me of Sabrina, and walking closer I notice it is her, and she was struggling to get out of the ginger guy's arms.

"Ay man get your hands off her" I yell

"Fuck you gonna do bout it man" he yells back grabbing her tighter

SABRINAS POV:

I knew from the voice who is was I knew it was him, I didn't want to look at him even if I missed him badly I was scared, so I just kept trying to get out of this guys arms, his grip on my waist was killing me I knew that would bruise.

BILLS POV:

I start getting closer getting ready to fight him but then thankfully he puts her down and runs off scared, the gaze in his eyes was obvious he was drunk.

" The fuck are you doing here?" I ask

She's still looking down not saying a word to me even after I just helped her right now, she starts trying to run off but I grab her by her wrist gently

"Sabrina look at me" I snap

I tried bringing her closer but I start losing my balance and we both fall into the pool

SABRINAS POV:

I couldn't bare his presence all the guilt I was carrying it felt like I was about to break the way he gently grabbed me, and I messed everything up between us, I wish I could go back to December now as we're in 2009 it's felt nothing but hell so far.

as I try running he makes us fall into the pool, I quickly try grabbing the ledge but fail the first time making me go in deeper, I couldn't breathe, and as I kept trying to go to the surface I feel warm hands grab me and bring me up, how many more times is he going to help me, it's like he's doing this on purpose to make me feel worse about myself.

"What the fuck Bill," I say as I grasp for air

he ignores my comment and brings me back to the grass

BILLS POV:

Once we got out I looked down to see her bracelets were gone, revealing new slits on her wrists, they looked fresh, a day old at the most.

hearing her as she cuss me out I still couldn't stop worrying about her

"fuck this I'm leaving" she mutters

"Sabrina wait" I yell

"what are you going to throw me off a fucking airplane and then catch me, are you going to continue helping me just so I can feel worse about myself?" she yells still avoiding eye contact

"Sabrina look at me" I yell

"BILL, you don't know how shitty I've been feeling carrying all the guilt, every day I'm reminded im nothing, every single fucking day, and I hear your name everywhere, I hope you're happy with that, bye I can't do this anymore I'm done with everything" her words were spoken in mumbled cries

she looks up at me seeing her pained eyes hurt me, knowing I caused all this pain in her, I try getting closer to her but she pushes me off with her shaky hands.

"No... no stop please if you're going to leave after this don't even try talking to me" she cries

"Sabrina.." my voice cracks saying her name seeing her like this broke me, all I've ever caused her is pain,

" I apologize for everything you won't forgive me but please know I'm sorry," I say while I cry holding her, she didn't move from my arms but
she wasn't hugging me either feeling her cold tired body only made me feel worse

" I know you don't forgive me," I say before she cuts me off saying

" Bill... I can't forgive myself, why are you apologizing?" she mutters

SABRINAS POV:

Bill held me for a while before grabbing my hand and caressing the slits on my wrist I felt awkward the whole time since the moment I saw him here, how would we be able to get back what we used to have?

"Sabrina" he mumbles

the gaze in his eyes softened they were still watery, I have no idea why he felt bad but I didn't say anything about it.

we melt in each other's eyes, we were both so vulnerable at this moment, but we were both there to comfort each other.

"I don't want to live without you," he says as he holds my face

"You're going to get cold, here," he says as he puts his jacket on me.

it smelled heavy of cigarettes, he's never smelled like this before, maybe a little bit back then but the smell was way stronger now.

I looked up at him as he stared down at me.

BILLS POV:

The weather wasn't cold enough to get her sick, I just couldn't handle the fact some people were trying to get her to be theirs while she was wearing this outfit, she doesn't belong to me, but I want her, so badly

"Sabrina?" I blurt

I felt even more tears form in my eyes as she stands there with a cold and hurt expression.

"Sabrina... I need you, I-" I couldn't get the word out my breathing was killing me right now

"Sabrina I love you"

"Bill." her voice cracked as she started crying

TOMS POV:

after finishing with the girl, I walked out to get fresh air, that felt amazing, but then anger filled my body once I saw Bill with Sabrina, they were both holding onto each other and they both looked soaked, the fuck happened? I think to myself

"Bill what the fuck" I yell

suddenly both of their eyes are drawn to me.

"Sabrina, when will you stop being a whore who can never get enough?" I say as I look at her disgustedly

I meant every word I said she was hurting my brother, even if she wasn't doing it on purpose I need to save my brother from her. As I try to think of how to deal with this Bill says,

"Tom we need to talk"