World behind my wall

cycle

"I long for you the longer i'm alive."

Bills pov:

Once I got to the venue everyone was there waiting for me

"Bill! There you are! What took you so long?" Gustav yelled backstage

"Traffic," I said as I was fixing with hair with some hair spray in one of the changing rooms

I knew I wasn't okay to do the show but I couldn't cancel I just had to forget everything that happened for the next hour, I winced as I accidentally sprayed hairspray on the burn on the palm of my hand.

The stage director suddenly appeared out of nowhere to tell me "Come out we start in about a minute"

"I'll be there," I said as I started to head towards the stage, the set started with the usual songs but it was nothing over the top just some small concert where we would sit down for the entire show.

Once it got to rette mich things only started to get worse

the whole concert I tried my best to be energetic and my normal self for my fans to not disappoint them but I couldn't hold it in any longer, half way through the song tears fell down my face and my voice shivered the lyrics.

"Ich seh' noch unsere Namen und wisch' sie wieder weg Unsere träume waren gelogen und keine Träne echt Hörst du mich, hörst du mich nich'"

I let the fans sing most of the song after that since you could barely recognize the song I was singing through my crying voice, Tom, Gustav, and Georg turned their heads toward me concerned and confused.

it was the last song on the set I felt as if I disappointed them all...

after the show, Tom came up to me " Are you okay? What happened with you and Sabrina?"

I look down at the floor before saying " I can't find her"

"What do you mean you can't find her?" He said with a concerned expression

Tears filled my eyes as I said " Look, I drove to her apartment but it already has a new owner i have no idea of her whereabouts "

Tom comforted me and on the way back once we finally reached our house I fell asleep.
I tossed and turned all night I couldn't sleep, I needed her here with me so badly

SABRINAS POV:

That night I had a dream about Bill that he was trapped in some sort of darkness screaming my name, suddenly I woke up in a panic.

I missed him I really did but I couldn't go back now, it was for the better.

He had been on my mind a lot that day since I saw Taylor at an event we exchanged handshakes but that was pretty much it, i'm surprised she still recognized me.

the next day I did a shoot for some magazines it was cool knowing I would finally be in one, and then the next day it was all the same, shoots, runways it was all becoming my daily cycle, my dreams finally came true but it's still missing something, the man who started it all for me Bill...

Every night I would turn on the TV in hopes that his band would come on MTV with no luck...

BILLS POV:

days and days pass I live each day but truthfully I'm just not there, I've had many other worries besides Sabrina as perfecting my vocals for the tour and managing stuff it feels as if it's all piling up.

As each day passed I noticed myself smoking more than eating which I know is a bad habit but what more do I have now? She was my serotonin.

We're doing another show this one was in a venue a bit bigger than the last one, so more fans, I smoked my last cigarette before heading out.