World behind my wall

Everlong pt.2

TW// SUICIDE  ATTEMPT

TOMS POV:

"I hate Sabrina" I hear those words come out of Bill's mouth as my eyes widen Deep in his eyes you can see regret, anger , sadness  I can't remember the last time I even saw Bill and Sabrina together...

BILLS POV:

"Sabrina"

"Fuck it in coming in," I said as I picked the lock with a hairpin

I see her as she is about to overdose on a bottle of pills I jump to her acdenitlaty making her fall over but I do manage to get the pills out of her hands as they are scattered everywhere

"Fucking asshole what more do you want from me," She said as she punched my chest

I winced a bit as she was a strong woman with her punches

"Hey.. hey what's going on with you Sabrina?" I said softly as she was in a very vulnerable state

"Are you seriously asking that Bill?" She responded angrily

" I'm not getting anything you're doing Sabrina, You haven't answered my calls in weeks, shit you've been avoiding me why?"

" You're a cheater that's why, I saw everything Bill Everything" She yelled

I tilted my head in confusion.

," See, See! you don't even care you never did" She said as she punched me as I tried to grab the remaining pills in her hand.

"fuck" I groaned as blood came from my lip.

" Come on Sabrina I can't remember shit from that night it meant nothing," I said as I tried grabbing for her hands to calm her down

" Exactly what Tom said about me but we're still fucking to this day" She muttered as she smiled with an evil smirk

she stared deep into my eyes before saying " I fucked your brother right after that party we're fair though aren't we?"

" Get hurt by him again then, but I'm done with this bullshit I don't want to hurt you I'm not like him," I said as I walked off

"Right because you know I'm right" she yelled back

"You're right? excuse me but it's very slutty of you to fuck my brother because you felt depressed from some drunk kiss, thought fits you huh?" I said back

I hesitated for a second before saying " I wish I never met you"

I didn't get a response after that if this is the way things end between us I'd prefer if that car accident killed me the second it happened.

SABRINAS POV:

Did it all just end like that? My entire world? what's wrong with me, why didn't he even care? nor cry?

With graduation only 2 weeks away I knew I would be leaving now, I was initially going to stay here with Bill, but now I don't have a point here, and either way, America has more modeling opportunities for me as I've already been told by my agent.

I walk back into my room to see all the pills, I quickly cover the window with a blanket in hopes his sweet scent of cologne would stay, knowing it's the only thing left I have of him.

a pain that's Everlong he brought me spring during winter now that he's gone I'll be left in spring as the seasons change

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" You're leaving Germany? Whyyyy" Evelyn whined

"I have no point being here after graduation " I sighed

Evelyn gasped as she immediately got what I was trying to say

During class breaks I would go into the cafe and drink my coffee, looking up to the mini TV and seeing him, I imagined whine red gloss all over his face, my kiss marks on him again...

a warm breeze hits my face spring air, you can still smell the remanence of winter but all over you, you feel spring that's how being without Bill felt like, like I'm forced to just move on.

Besides Evelyn I had no one else in my life, my mom was in jail, my dad was dead and I don't even know about any other family members in my life

it felt like I was being driven to insanity as the days went on

anytime I slept he was there in my dreams, he was there in my mind, but most importantly he was there... in my heart

I haven't even gotten any calls from Tom either so I assume his brother told him but I couldn't understand Tom wasn't he also in the wrong? so why would he be mad at me

BILLS POV:

I wanted what was best for her, we would've never worked out, we only caused pain to each other so it was time for one of us to grow up and say it, though everything pains me a piercing feeling in my chest almost

when I drove back home Tom was there oblivious as always, how could he? how could my own brother just betray me like this?

"She told me everything Tom..." I blurted out as he turned his attention towards me

"What do you mean?" he questioned

"Stop playing dumb how could you honestly?" I while my head in disappointment

" Listen I was always there for her, but where were you? Where were you when she needed someone to hold back her hair as she threw up, I was there. You only ever made her cry and I was there to comfort her" He said back

"She was mine! you knew that but still, you fuck her? behind my back?" I yelled

" You told me... you told me you were going to break up with her. you said you were going to wait a week love doesn't have an expiration date Bill" He yelled back

How could he be saying all this to my face he knew how much she meant to me, she knew that too, why was this all happening to me?

we fought for what felt like hours until we got tired and had nothing to say, we concluded that if a girl would cause this much fighting  between us she was a girl who belonged in neither of our lives.

SABRINAS POV:

**Day of graduation**

I had no means of being here anymore this would be my last moment here in Germany before I left, my apartment with the broken window would be bare until someone who lives off little money like me finds it and moves in.

If they search for me they won't find me, because I just won't be there.

I imagined these special moments of my graduation ever since I was a little girl I imagined a proud mother and a proud father sitting there watching me as I said my speech and got my diploma.

In the crowd, there is no one, not a single soul who cares about me

Afterward, I watch as everyone gets their hugs, flowers , and kisses from their loved ones while I stand there empty-handed without any flowers in the parking lot, cold

I closed my eyes as the cold spring breeze hit my face.

"Bill..." I mumbled as tears fell from my face only to open my eyes and see a dim parking lot  him nowhere to be seen

I turned over to see Evelyn with her boyfriend and family smiling as she hugged them all I turned back to my car and drove to my apartment for one last time...