The BNB

mixed messages

  The next few weeks flew by with the bnb coming over every weekend and me joining my brother a few times when hanging during the week days. Everything was going amazing to be completely honest with you and it all just seemed right.

We had decided to still hide our "relationship" from my brother since he would obviously freak if his vest friend dated his sister but I was ok with that. When the bnb wasn't at our apartment and we weren't together we were constantly texting and sending cute little pictures. Even if he was at work he would text me. It made me feel so important that he made time for me and I still search for that feeling in relationships now.

Pretty soon it was the weekend before school started. I was super nervous for my first day of highschool and my parents not letting the bnb come over was NOT helping. I paced back and forth in my room trying to make sure I had everything ready for the morning while waiting for a text back from the bnb. Earlier that night I had sent him a text asking if he was excited that we would be going to school together but he hadn't even opened it and I was starting to worry.

As i finally settled on an outfit for school I heard my phone buzz and ran to pick it up. I looked down at the screen and grinned seeing his nickname pop up in my notifications. I unlocked my phone and felt myself physically deflate at what I read.

Hot Doofus
Hey, sorry I took so long to reply.
I'm pretty sure we won't even see each other at school so I don't think much will change. Actually with school I'll probably see you less tbh cuteness

I took a moment to let the disappointment dissipate before I sent my response.

Strawbaby
Oh... Yeah thats true Ig, its just we both had the same lunch on b days and I kinda figured my brother would be to busy to help me find my classes so I was hoping you'd help me out.

Ig youll be busy to tho, probably should have realized that sorry

Hot Doofus
Oh yeah your right, I forgot we looked at our schedules together.

I mean yeah I'll help you get to class but I honestly don't want Jordan to get the wrong idea since we just broke up a little but ago and we still don't want your brother knowing about us

I paused trying to figure out what he meant by the wrong idea but decided to label it as poor wording before responding.

Strawbaby
I don't think she or anyone else will get any ideas, I'm your best friend's sibling so most people will think your helping me cause your one of the only people ik there since ive been home schooled the last year and a half

Hot Doofus
We'll see
Anyways its late and I worked today so I'm going to bed.
I'll see you at school

Strawbaby
Oh okie, gn
Cu

Confused from the conversation and how different he was acting from how he was just a week before, I plugged up my phone and laid down.
As I laid there in my bed unable to sleep I started really thinking about stuff. I thought about how weird it was that he was so adamant on nobody knowing. Then about how odd it was he liked me of all people especially with him being older than me. About how his lips always tasted of cigarettes and how that was the real reason I enjoyed smoking. I questioned if I should even be feeling how I did. About if the bnb was going to start wanting to do more than just make out and if so what I'd tell him. Really just about how everything was so new and confusing.

Trust is a scary little thing berries, remember that and always make sure your doing whats best for you mentally.