The BNB

doubts

  The bnb took me to a nearby food place for lunch even though freshmen weren't supposed to leave the campus for lunch and surprisingly nobody stopped us on our way out. It was only an eight minute walk but by the time we got there I was exhausted and a bit grumpy from the heat. We went up to the counter and I just kinda stood behind the bnb looking around as he ordered, spotting a nice place to sit for when he was done.

"Your turn to order love." He said turning to me and linking his fingers through mine and gently tugging me forward.

"Oh um I don't have any money." I said  quietly while pushing my bangs further over my eyes trying to use my hair to hide from the anxiety of public places.

"Ok so? I'm paying you dork." He said as if it was supposed to be obvious.

"Well still... I'm not that hungry." I said in almost a whisper while looking down, suddenly very interested in my shoe laces.

"Ok then go find us a place to sit. We'll probably have to head back soon but at least we'll get to sit and talk for a little." He said kissing my cheek and nudging me towards the sitting area after handing me his bag.

I went and sat at the table I'd chosen earlier and set our bags in the two chairs on one side of the table and sat down at the other side. Not long after the bnb joined me with a bag of food and handed me a cup of sprite. I looked up at him questioningly but to my surprise he also handed me a container of curly fries. I continued staring at him and the food puzzled as to what was happening.

"I know your not hungry but I also remember how long you went without eating the other day so your eating at least that." He said without looking up from his burger.

"But-" I started to protest while pouting a bit.

"I'll give you a cig if you eat half and I'll add as many kisses as you want on the way back if you eat  all of it." He stated cutting me off.

I didn't say anything else as I grabbed a fry and started eating while looking down at my lap like a scolded child. After another 10 minutes he had finished his food and I was almost done so we decided to head back so we'd have time to get to class. I may not have finish all of the fries before we threw out our trash leaving the "restaurants" parking lot, but I still got all the rewards.

On the way back we talked about random stuff and smoked, just genuinely enjoying each others company with me giggling practically the whole way with all his jokes and sarcasm. When we got back to the school we were still a bit early so he took me to this little alcove he had found for the second part of the rewards. As we were walking to it he explained that its usually empty and the cameras don't work so we wouldn't get caught.

We sat on a concrete bench and he leaned in with his hands resting on my hips, giving me light kisses along my neck making me giggle. I felt him smile against my neck before he leaned back and looked at me for a minute. He then lightly tugged at my hips pulling me towards him, making me squeak in surprise. After the initial shock I realized what he was wanting and carefully straddled his lap wondering if I was doing it right. I guess I was because he went back to kissing my neck slowly moving up to my lips.

I knew its what he wanted to be doing and that theoretically it should be but I wanted to but for some reason something didnt feel right. I don't know what it was but it all felt to soon. Here I was in the lap of and kissing a very hot guy who was two years older than me and here I was having doubts? What was I thinking??

I waited another minute before pulling away because I didnt want to upset him. When I did pull away I mumbled something about needing to have enough time to find my class and carefully got off his lap and started walking away from him with my bag. He got up and quickly caught up to me with his bag looking forward but visibly annoyed.

"Where's your next class again?" He said in a very monotone voice obviously trying to hide any emotion he was feeling.

"Oh uh ive got this one. I saw it on the way to my first class." I lied honestly a little anxious by how mad he looked and wanting some space to think before class.

He stopped walking completely and just looked at me with this baffled look across his face. After a second he just shook his head and muttered something along the lines of "Whatever, bye steph." Practically spitting the audible venom when he said my name.

"Mhm see you after school" I said in my best cheery voice adding a small fake smile to hide the hurt his reaction caused.

What do you berries think is going on?